What Good It Gets when You Get enough Sleep

TADA!!!!

Yeah! My physical looks would seem like I'm relieved after a very tremendous event that had happened 2 a week ago. Well, some say I have moved on but in reality, I really did not.

Thanks to some friends who shared times and lent me their ears while i was blabbering. My appreciation for those people who have considered me a big, important friend thus I am still here and ready to face another storm brough by life.

Or maybe the good night sleeps had given the reason to smile after all. Thanks to Mommy Jane!

The four corners of one of her rooms made me feel special and important thus my deepest gratitude for letting me in. My sincerest thanks to her for welcoming me and opening up her house and let me use one of those comforting rooms I've ever had. I got 8 hours straight sleep thus giving me enough energy to continue with what I was about to leave.

These good night sleeps made me feel like nothing ends if you really seek for help. That despite of the tragedies and chaotic situations, life is still there for you to face. You do not need to think about what's not to come or what's in store. You seek for it. You asked for it so you need to work on it to get an answer.

These consecutive good sleeps have made me realize my worth, my existence and now I can move on freely, think and wander my thoughts liberally and stand with my own liberty and freedom again.

I wish I have slept 8 hours daily before!

Choices and its consequences

If you are to pick a pink bag and you are a man, then basically people would have this questions protruding in their minds. Why pink? Why that color? Its unmanly!

If you are to pick a broadway show than watching soldier-themed movies, then your friends would start to ask you why. Why?

The answer is, its our choice! Its our forte and its what what we love.

A man would say, I chose the pink bag because its cute and I guess I don't care what people say. This is my identity or this is my faveorite color or I'm trying to make a trend.

Or, a man would say, I love music. I like music. I love performances and I love to be on that stage someday so im picking the broadway than the movie.

Everybody deserves choices for themselves. Needless of the negative consequences that it may bring, as long as you can carry on and stand on why you pick that choice, bring it!

Why do we need to listen to people when we know that what we are doing are simply the "just" for ourselves. We, too, need opinions from others but bringing something like "Dude, you would look gay in that pink thing" or "Did you forget that you are a man and man loves action movies?" are way below the line. Yes we need those criticisims and justifications but the truth remains the same. We rule our own lives.

I chose to leave because i want a greener pasture or I chose to stay because I love my colleagues and the crown I'm in, are some of the choices I opted to pick these days. The truth remains the same, I'm here! Staying in this very happy playground. I chose this because I can't find any other reason why I should leave in the first place. I don' have a place to go. I don't have a place to stay and I am so tired of always starting up anew.

Despite of these decisions, my friends differ in their ideology of why I am staying. Some said that its best to leave co'z of the sufficating task. Some others would beg me to take a rest and some others will just hold on to me and ask me to stay because this is the only place that I could call my own.

I love picking choices and facing consequences but still I would defer the decision to myself.

..on Moving Forward ( an unwise decision?)

I suppose to wear that happy smile on my face after being personally chosen by one of my Boss to be transferred to another department. Yes, a sort of flattery moment but then again, it came surprisingly, by-passing my existence. I deserve to know first though since it was me that needs to decide if I am willing or not. Who else would decide for myself but myself alone!

My idea of growth in the work place is based on the opportunities that would come knocking on my door. I always wanted to grow everyday when I am at work. I have always wanted to surpass those things that I can do and change it to a more challenging and complicated stuff, have my self untie those knots of difficulties and breath fresh air after coping with the new challenge. Yes! that's what I've always wanted. Growth, challenged and prosper in this world.

It all came as a surprise. Or should I say a joke that have slipped out from one of my Boss's tongue. When I was asked if I wanted to be transferred, I definitely said "NO!". I like my current environment. I like my crowd and I love working on this jungle of fun place. So I said "no". But honestly, I was thinking selfishly.

It came to me that I should have considered what's at stake. Promotion? Challenge? But why me? Im cenrtainly not the only one around and there are a lot to pick who can work better than me. There is this colleague of mine who is better than me (I swear he is!) who deserves a new environment. For goodness sake, lets say that staying in that four corners of the room for a year will really make you sick. This man needs to vacate his seat and sit more comfortable outside that zone. I would love him to take that part and have me stay in my current office.

The truth is....

I wanted this!

My Last Hurrah!

Well, it has been a pretty bad months previously, for me. Certain things have made my outcast plight but I guess things will change now. Now that my last hurrah has paved its way, I think I can move on smoothly.

Remembering those days will always hurt my pride and ego after bowing down to people whom I should not bow to. I still reign the kingdom and nobody can stand in front of me and I will never let my guard down now that I have been so pathetic for the last couple of days.

As they say, life sucks for good people, I can say it was and it will never be for me now that the filthy witch has took its broom out to nowhere, my dominion will now reign again.

I just simply kicked out someone from my house after considering its state of nowhere to go and nowhere to sleep. But too much really harms some other elses life, thus, my last hurrah was when the witch walk her way out of my kingdom.

Goodbye!

The Harry Potter Book Marathon

So goes my one week vacation (but including my restdays from works, it was a nine day straight out of the office). I spent much of my time at home trying to arrange and re-arrange the things in the living room but have been taking much time in sleeping.

I really did plan something on this vacation but there were things that have came along the way not allowing me to go on with my plan. Dammit though! I arrange this vacation for a special occasion, concerning my Father's death anniversary, since December of 2010. Gees! another of those broken plans.

Anyways, i find time as well to read those books on my shelf and was able to complete reading the whole 7 books of Harry Potter in just a month (March 10 to April 11, 2011). I have read the first 2 books before but i decided to read it again anf go on with the rest of the books in which I find it self-fulfilling that I was happy to finish it in a short period of time despite of me being busy at work sometimes.

What did i gain from that book?

I guess i can't say that i gained something from the book or learned something from it. The thing is, i didn't read it to look for a specific thing that I could apply to my life. All the stories were actually packed with adventure and it gives me a realization that there is a world existing in our imagination and all you need to do is just look at it on a different view such as reading this kind of stuff.

I salute J.K. Rowling though for the wonderful book she have shared. It is worth reading for me and it is worth imagining things like flying brooms, Quidditch and Horcruxes. I even wanted to have some Hocruxes so that I could atleast live 7 lives (which is impossible). Just an FYI, Horcruxes will be introduced on the last movie.

As i have heard, the last Harry Potter movie will be showing on July 2011 and im pretty excited to watch it.

Move On and Bye Bye

So here goes me. I missed a lot of things in FB due to smoe hectic schedule at work. Haven't done visiting my neighbors in CITYVILLE or even visited my town in FRONTIERVILLE. I was able to get a chance to change my profile pic. But haven't got the chance to post a new status.

I got some music browsing done for one song "TIM JAMES - I'LL BE YOUR SECRET" but to no avail thus I posted the video on my wall and asking for peple (begging!) to spare me the song bye sending it through my email or even give me a shot if they have it.

Anyway, I'm moving on. Enough of those kind deeds. Enough of those "understand-the-situation-of-a-friend" scenarios. I grown up with it and I don't wanna be left out as the sole victim of this kind deeds.I ain't born a saint. If they can't take what actions should I take, better be sorry for them. I just want to see the real me without hiding what I feel. Besides, enough is enough. Troubles have been done. Pity days is over and this is the start.

I won't treat people with special care unless they would see me as such too. Someone that they can take care that much.

Or maybe this is the time that I need to check the reality that I am 30 years old and I ain't getting any younger. I need to move on and I need to be more mature than what I am now.

Sorry you pal. I ain't taking this any longer but I guess if things will not end my way by Friday, consider waving your hands bye bye to a wonderful time with us. I don't wanna play around like a saint anymore. You aren't taking your steps to even show you care for the things that had happened.

Bye.

GLEE Season 2 Episode 16

Thanks for the seeds and peers who have not let my day down. I was able to download the GLEE S02E16 where in the cast has come up with fresh new songs. I know that it is not always okay to sing the most requested songs on the radio and, well, this episode has something to prove that the cast will have a milestone on their chosen field. 

Anyways, I figured it out that Rachel Berry (Lea Michelle) will be singing the solo for the regional performance (as always). But she really is a woman of art. She belted the song well and I just love how she delivered the song knowing that it was an original composition. 

What surprise me too is how the song "LOSER LIKE ME" gave a positive outlook to all losers. It was such a catchy song and such a song of wit and well I my say I want to download the song but I can see any seed yet. 

GLEE-K here. Hoping for next week's episode 17. (i got all the season 2 filed up in my downloads, im glad I am not waiting for it to be in DVD co'z I can make one soon.)

Why I am So Hooked Up with "GLEE"

I have counted down the various reasons why I'm so hooked up with the current dominating musical show on TV, "GLEE". I hope it ain't a surprise when I say that I have been born to love music and watch musical shows. It runs in my blood though. My parents are good with singing and they too are musically inclined. They have always been a role model to me ever since.Well, not just my parents but as well as my kins. I would say, we are a clan of singer-wanna-be's. And, well its just the way it is. 

Now, lets go back to the main biz. GLEE has been one phenomenal sitcom that has captured the whole of me. Its music, characters and episodes will always have me dig the internet for those songs they are playing. Alas! Thanks to the this great technology innovation that I could look them up easily. 

 I have made my own list of reasons tough why I liked "GLEE" so much. 

1. I love how they play with their characters. A variety of people with various characteristics comprising a Glee Club is so unusual but they did it well. 

2. I love how Brittany (Heather Morris) play dumb and she really is one person I always look forward to whenever she delivers a line co'z I know it would always be a punchline even if she has that innocent looking and face. I just love Heather doing the character. It is only her that I was able to get the idea that ADULTERY is all about being stupid as an adult. I got a lot of laugh on that. 

3. The protagonist/antagonist approach of Santana is so realistic. This Latina (I hope she is) bitch will really have you wanted to screw her neck whenever she plays her role and whenever she screams fight to any other character. Watching her doing it is such a reel. Plus, she is hot and I love her when she plays the playful Santana trying to play with boys. 

4. Combining winners and losers in one team is a total disaster in which only in Glee caters this type of Group. The cheerleaders, the football players and jocks down to an handicap-able man on wheel chair, they are in one team, THE GLEE CLUB of McKinley High. 

5. They cater variety of music. They just don't stop with the latest but they did down the albums of dead people and trying to give it a new taste to the new generation to fit in and look back on yesterdays kind of music, plus, the fact that they also cater almost types of music genres, its a good watch and listen show. Knowing the fact that I wasn't born on the 50s or the 60's not even the 70s but I can hear them singing songs older than me and I'm glad to hear it these people. It gives my song vocabulary and additional list of songs. 

6. Dianna Agron (Glee's Quinn) is so hot that I am not wondering why she was the head cheerleader, Fin's ex, Puck's child and Sam's new love. Her bitchy approach sometimes can always make her on top but I always love her whenever she plays an angel and talks softly and friendly. I just love her. 

7. Gender is not an issue to be a part of the group and diversity is not an issue as well but not if Kwarovski would kiss Kurt again. LOL. Kurt is one typical happy people that just wanted to see his nature in a crowd which he found in Glee and I love it when they embraced Kurt in the group not as a gay but someone who is one of them sharing the same passion in the arts of music. 

To be continued..

Me and My Horoscope for the day

From the above horoscope, it is reality for me for the past few days. My moody irritation is driving the people around me crazy about what is happening tome. 

For the past days, I have been so troubled with everything around. Family, friends, work, love life and myself. All is soaking my soul to death that I can't find time to properly think of things clearly and do some things appropriately. All I know is I kind to forget that I ain't alone in this world but still I seem to isolate myself and retracing all by myself the past wrong things that I have done. 

Good thing I still have the ability to camouflage my real feelings and have it hidden until all around me is an empty space and time starts to tick tock slowly that all I can hear are just those sighs i breath and those empty thoughts are penetrating the every inch of me.

Glad that I could still work properly and can still talk with people humorously. I never have time to talk to myself when I know I got some issues within me and I still tend not neglect it.

They say horoscopes are not real but I could probably say this time that the above captured horoscope says something about me and my state during these times. 

Bad.

"I Am Number Four" or the misspelled name case again.

Since it was my rest day, I have all my time to do anything what I want to do. My itinerary for this day is blank thus whatever comes in my mind, so be it.

After getting out from Unionbank ( I have my expiring ATM renewed) me and my Bhe went to Robinson's for some quality time. We have not planned of anything yet but whatever comes, so be it.

After checking whats being shown, we ended together to watch "I AM NUMBER FOUR". It stars ALEX PETTYFER. Our friend's review has have got us wonder what was the movie co'z we heard good feedbacks and, they did not let us down.

It was a good movie ( simply i couldn't say the best) and though I know this was based on a novel/book, there are deleted scenes that we cannot see but we can read in the book.

SFX were great. Superb fighting scenes and great stunts.

This movie starred my favorite GLEE-k DIANNA AGRON (playing Quinn in "GLEE"). Such a pretty face. I love her more when she does not play the villain of the story. She was great and yes she is so beautiful.

She played Sarah (opposite John Smith, played by Pettyfer). She was indulged in photography and when she met John (an alien who dress, walk, talk and live like us [human]), it turned out that she fall inlove with him and the rest was there love story. At the end, John will need to leave her first as they need to find some of their race scattered in allover the world.

Callan McAullife played "Sam", a bully from their school but has made friends with John and they turned out to be buddies, searching for Sam's father who was known to have been abducted by aliens of John's like.

HE and his father believed that aliens from other planets exist but has been treated like freaks and was bullied almost all throughout Sam's younger years but he now can prove that they were not those types of person when he met John. The problem is, He need to keep the things in silent.

This is Timothy Olyphant. He played the protector of "the number four, John. His rule was to play as the father of the alien John. Well, as the story goes, protectors always die in the movie and he died in the movie for protecting the sole savior of their planet.

He was cool.

And before the movie ended appears TERESA PALMER, who introduced herself as the "NUMBER SIX". SHe and John fought their enemies and all I can say was their scenes were great. SFX made it like something real.

TERESA PALMER is one hottie!




Well, I was ended with some hanging questions. I know there will still be a sequel for the movie and I hope it would be shown so soon.

Anyways, to save up some of my hanging questions, we went to Bestsellers (a National Bookstore  subsidiary) to ask about the book and yes, they confirmed its selling like hot cakes. I have asked them to reserve one for me and the problem on wrong spelling appeared again.

Sales Lady: How about saving one for you sir?
Me: Sure.

She grabbed a piece of paper and a pen and wrote down "Reserved" and my name: "Mr. John".

to Nimmy, comment on why I appear to have issues with the spelling of the sales lady again.


LOL.

127 Hours (Aaron Ralston's Story)

Its 6:20 in the morning and its more than 18 hours that I am wide awake. After my 12 midnight end shift work, I always tend to get my self busy with things co'z I know my eyes would not collapse yet the moment I come home. 

I just finished watching 127 Hours which starred one great actor, James Franco. From the words of my friends mouth, its a good watch thus I was so curious and wanted to have a peak.

The story was actually based on reality. This were all experiences of Aaron Ralston on his adventure to the Great Canyon (don't know exactly which state was it in the US but I know its one God's great grandeur.) 

These experiences have put some realization to Ralston's life. Only when the worst case scenario came that he have thought he has been selfish and has been so happy-go-lucky without even knowing that he has already neglected his duty as a son, a friend, a lover and as an individual. 

Sometimes we would all feel the same way as Ralston. We forget our responsibilities and more often we would always think of things selfishly. (Im guilty!). Most of the times, it is only during the darkest hours of our life that we would realize how stupid we are for not even thinking of what might other people say and do and what might we have listened to that would be a good way to weigh things. 

If we are in Ralston's situation, cutting his arms would have been our only escape from that rock. We are helpless and we can't find someone to pull up the rock and get our arms freed from being stuck. The reality is that it is during those time that we can then appreciate the fact that we have people around us who can help and lift us up. Thus, it is always important for every individual to learn from their mistakes and continue life despite of what had already happened. 

After Ralston's escape from the rock, reality hugged him and thus still living the way he was but now along with a partner. 

No man is an island. None can gain confidence if no one appreciates those little and simple things you do. It is always important to follow one rule of the thumb: "Don't let yourself be fooled by your own. Second opinion always helps thus live not alone and be a listener, a friend or a lover. A son, brother or a group member. After all, it is always rewarding to see people smiling at you because you are important to them. 

For the movie alone, its one great eye opener for people who are bounded by his mind and his own. Open up and see things not just by the way how you see it and let the people around you tell them how they see it and weight it. 

A must see movie!

^_^

My Emo Moments (//.-)

While I was weighing things while I am sitting in my room, I realized that I have missed a lot of things that i could have done to make me worth not just a son, a lover, a friend, and individual and a future family man. 

I came to realize that I have been empty all the time. None has been accomplished by myself. Nothing has happened for those past years and past months. 

I came to realize that I have neglected a lot of things or have thought much about things selfishly. 

I do have my right of giving myself a break but things have been so fast that I was not able to look after what I have done and what have not done for me, myself and for the people around me. 

I was ALONE all the time that I was not so sure why I have been so empty until this day.

Secret Garden (Korean Soap Opera)

So I finished watching the Korean Soap Drama "SECRET GARDEN". Well, actually, i haven't finished watching the whole 20 episodes and ended at episode 18 co'z the episodes 19 and 20 were busted. Silly CD!

Episode 19 and 20 plays the great episodes co'z this would make some serious turn-outs of things and I tried digging in some info in the net (videos) and mysoju.com's file was also corrupted. Dammit! I tried looking in youtube.com but sigh! i only got some episode 19 parts. Dammit!(again). I have stayed more than 16 hours awake just watching the soap and I would only end up craving for the episodes 19 and 20. 

Anyhow, the story was another one great Korean drama. The twist and turns are more surprising and revelations are more surpirse

The story revolves around 2 individuals, Ra Im and Woon Joo. Ra Im was an orphan turned stunt woman at the age of 30 while Woon Joo is one money-maker who plays the president of their Department Store LOEL. 

Of course, there love story is the usual plot of a poor girl and a prince but in the story, Ra Im and Woon Joo were 2 individuals of different characteristics and as the story goes the adage "opposite attracts" will prove that love can move 2 hearts. But, for this 2 love birds, its a hell of ups and downs for Woon Joo's mother is so against them plus there is the director and singer who shake's the Ra Im and Woon Joo tandem. 

The next thing I know, I was carried away on how the twist moved Woon Joo's mother when she later found out that Woon Joo's savior when he was on an elevator accident that brought him to the state of being claustrophobic, was Ra Im's fireman Father. But she still need to cut off what ties his son and the poor stunt woman thus despite of the gratitude for the girl's father, she will do everything not to end up seeing his son with Ra Im. 

And, another twist came in when Woon Joo's memory about the accident was being brought up by his mind.

I don't know what comes next co'z episode 19 and 20 were busted. Gees!

Just want to share though one line from the soap that made me realize about life.

"IN LIFE, THERE ARE SOMETHINGS THAT COULD MAKE US HAPPIER BUT WE CAN'T SEE IT BECAUSE WE ARE ALREADY SMILING AT IT WITHOUT NOTICING IT."

:)

A Birthday Memoir: Chona Mae Reyes

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Stuff-Less and Boring Offs (Killing Me!)

And I was lying in my bed the whole day again thinking of things that might give me satisfaction for this day. Think! Think! Think! None has come my way and my mind thus I decided to just stay on bed and wait when my phone would alert me for some messages. For about 4 hours, I received 1 message. Such a dull life and day. 

Afternoon came and still I run out of things to think and do. I went upstairs to see if my downloads were up (Glee Season 2 Episodes 10 to 14)! Crap! One is left after 12 hours of downloading it. The Serendipity soundtrack though was already downloaded thus it gave me time to browse whats inside. Good to listen songs but my ears will always be stuck to Annie Lennox version of "Waiting In Vain". Gees! Serendipity has come to my mind so I went downstairs and grab my DVD cases full of movie CDs. I picked up Serendipity and run it on the player. 

For about 2 hours, I was still stunned by how the Serendipity movie goes. After all, its my favorite movie of all time. 

So I was done watching the movie and I need to think of another thing to do. Sigh! None has come my mind again. I went upstairs and check if the downloads are good. Thanks God! I got 8 season 2 episodes for GLEE (7 to 14). So I deliberately watched the previous episodes which I have watched already. I guess Episode 11 is the latest episode but I started with episode 7. 

Now, its 8:00PM, I have nothing left to do. What else can make me busy? My phone just got an alert for a message. Grabbed it and read my friends messages. Its sad to say but before the day ends, my phone has just gave me 7 messages in total. Or should I stopped my "divert"option and have it working normally for my number. 

Read a blog about "ILUSTRADO". A book that I have just bought the last 2 weeks ago and I guess that would be my cue to keep me busy. Reading the book. But first, i need to get me something for my tummy and something for my 'umay"moments, COFFIN NAILS!

Such a boring life to live. I hope I could go out sometimes with people that I can have fun times with. Invites please. :-)

The Case of "icks" vs "x"

A lot of confusion with words would always appear in front of us. Spelling matter I mean. There are times when we, ourselves, is not able to spell out a word correctly when the fact remains that we have encounter that word for almost everyday of our lives. Or sometimes, to avoid confusion, we tend to make the word abbreviated. Of course this is a defense mechanisn against critics who would dare check on your spelling ability especially during this era when "texting" is some what a trend. Words were shortened, short-cut and sometimes changed to a different way just to go with the trend.

Take the word "would" for example. For texters, this could be spelled as "wud" or sometimes "wod". It depends on the texter actually. The reason for this might be because they want to spend less time and more words for a P1 worth text.

Anyways, this does not concern my rant. The thing is, I have been so clear when I say my name, "BRIX" whenever one is asking me. A lot of cases like people misspelling my name is really a pain in my head.

Starbucks is my favorite coffee place in the whole world and yes I like how they treat their customers especially when they ask for your name to be written on you coffee cup or that Venti cup for them not to mess up the orders.

Should I say it had happened to me 4 times now when they would spell my name as "BRICKS" instead of the for letter name "BRIX". Don't they know that most people with the name Brix uses "x" instead of "icks"? Gees! My rant is too shallow I know but sometimes this makes sense. Names are important to be spelled correctly to avoid complications in the future.

Imagine yourself acquiring government related papers and if your name is misspelled, it is such a case of a pain in your head thus we should let them know and we should check that everything is spelled right. We can't afford to start all over again co'z it would take extra time and extra effort just to have things fixed.

Rant, rant and rant. I guess this is me becoming old.

The Baker King (Korean Soap)

So goes my first day of the 2 days off. Another slacking day and has been all the time lying while watching TV. This is one of those usual things that I am on when I am out of the office. A little sip of something for refreshment and some stuff for my stomach. 

I have been a fan of Korean Soap-Operas thus this has been one of my past times. Korean soaps are far more filled with emotions and great twists of stories. That's one thing that I always love with Korean series. 

Have watched a lot of Korean soaps and for the last 4 days, I was focused on this "Baker King" soap opera. The last 3 days has not been a continuous one but i ended with 9 episodes and just for this day, the 10th until the last episode. 

I heard that this was aired in the Philippines already and was dubbed in our own language to fit the masses. GMA was the one who aired the program but I really don't like how they dub Korean soaps. I'd prefer ABS-CBN when it comes to perfect dubbing of this Asian TV shows.

"Baker King" is a 30-episode soap thus I started playing it from 4:30AM up til 11:00PM. An eye soaring activity for the day plus I have got no eye-closing yet and it turned my eyes eyes red now. 

This is a story of rivalry, kinship, power, greed, family, friendship, freedom and dreams. Its got a lot of twist and a lot of tear-jerking scenes that could really touch your soft sides. I never cried though but there were some scenes that could really touch your heart. You will surely get something to learn from this soap and lines that will put a mark in your brains. 

Main character Kim Tak Gu has never dream of becoming someone great but it was his call to be in the future as he was a son of a Bread Industry mogul. He never knew from the start that his life is more than what he have endured during his younger years. It was then when he was 12 years old when his mother Kim Mi Sun introduced him to wealthy family and to his father. Too young by then, he was shocked by the revelation but has still wanted to stay as a low profile child until he matures. He does not want to play a great person in the future co'z it was never par of his dream but for his mother. 

This was the cause on the never ending tale of ups and downs, tears and happiness, revenge and success for Tak Gu. For a period of 12 years after his mother was kidnapped, his life was programmed by his own self to look for his long lost mother. When he found the person who took his mother, by then he was introduced to the world of bread-making and another twists and turns were revealed for the unending search of freedom and dreams. 

He was then starting to love the new passion in bread making. He has the edge to the other bakers as he possesses a special sense of smell in which was prophetically said to be an unbeatable bread-maker. On his journey to this world, he found a rival in the name Sae Tae Jo which in the latter part of the story was proclaimed as his younger half-brother Gu Man Ju who has also been dreaming of becoming the next mogul in Bread Making in exchange of their father. 

But fate has always been good for Tak Gu thus giving more reason for Man Ju to envy the sibling. Man Ju has been in search of recognition from his father thus he entered the bread making world. Not only was his father's recognition was at stake. When he met the child-turned to-lady Shin Yu Kyung (Tak Gu's childhood friend and later has become his girlfriend) he wanted to take away Yu Kyung from Tak Gu by means of winning in the bread making competition. 

Tak Gu's fate has always been inclined with troubles and revenge from the people around him. Despite of this, his pure heart and smiling face has always win and would allow his villains to further put him down but they are unable to fully take Tak Gu. 

It ended well for Tak Gu and his mother as they both were back on each other's arms and Tak Gu have touch many people that he have encountered in the entire play. 

Anyways, all I can say is that I love the story and I love Korean soaps.

A Valentine Memory

The last time I checked, Valentines day has already ended. An annual celebration of love all over the world but not for all. I just spent all the time at work and work and more work. Such a boring kind of life. Such a loser as they say. 

But no, I ain't a loser co'z I was once able to celebrate this feast of the hearts along time ago. My very first and very ever formal Valentine date. This was way back 1999. I don't know why it just came out of my mind and never did I realize that it haunt me. 

Last night, I browsed my Friendster account co'z I have been searching for someone that has played a great role why I started to feel like Valentines Day is a special day to cherish memories and spend time with your special someone. 

This was the very first girl I took for a Valentines Date. A formal invitation and a memorable one for me. 

Her name is Cristy De Villa. Her family call her Ynte. I call her Miss Asa Rin and she wanted to be called Tricsy. 

Cristy was of my same age. We meet way back 1998 in Edsa Crossing where I worked in her Tita's novelty shop. She was a working student by then and she was working at the same place I work though specially on weekends and on days that she's got no schedule to go to school. 

It all started with love notes and love letters. I, myself, has been fond of writing down anything that i could think of in a poem. I have her as my coach by then. I let her read my compositions until such time, I came to realize that she became the apple of my eye. 

We started to please each other when one night we are talking serious things about our family and experiences. She was by then busy with her school work but I guess that time I was so eager to look for someone to talk with. And so, I grabbed her attention and we started talking as if we have known each other for a long time. That was the start of a good friendship. 

Cristy was the kind of girl who was born a fighter. Need not to tell you though why I'd say so. There are limitations that I need not to tell. 

She was the only person who told me to stop smoking and yes I did. But when conflicts arose like when her family, sister and even her Tita has figured something like me and her has this "mutual understanding thing", an emotional commotion was triggered to fail thus I feel like I was a loser. 

By then, when conflicts arose, we don't talk face to face but we let our pen and paper do the talking. I cried one night when she told me I can never be someone that she can be with for a special friend. I cried the whole night and I started the melancholy moments of my life with her. 

One night, when she found out that I wasn't the same me that she have known (co'z I become the worst of me), she talked to me face to face and she saw me cry. Those were hours of the turning point again of our relationshipa s special friends for each other. 

On the eve of Valentines day of 1999, I wrote a letter to her asking her if she could be my Valentine Date. She neglected it. But to my surprise, she came to me and let me say the invitation personally. AY! What a night!

The plan was actually to watch movie in Megamall, last full show. 

The night came, nobody from her family and nobody form our colleagues knew that we will be going out that Valentines night. We stroll the sidewalk to Megamall but we were too late co'z the last full show was already closed. We were both dismayed. We decided to take a walk and talk about things but instead of talking things, we were both silent while walking through a food chain which was the last resort. When we are about to cross the road, I grabbed her hands and took her to McDonalds since none was open other than that 24 hour food chain. 

We stayed silent and have not talk much. Both were tongue-tied. There was a time though when we surprisingly opened up a topic so serious that the atmosphere of the environment felt like Love is in the air. Whatever we have talked about, that would remain with the both of us. 

A good start for a special relationship. 

Time has been so cruel though and problem still arose. My being jealous was the issue and my being so silent was one thing that she hates. Co'z I never talk whenever i got a problem. I would just let her see that I bare a problem. 

Anyways, I am still looking for her till now just to properly fix things...

The Employees Pride 2

Ever wonder how it feels to be in a place where in you are limited with your actions? Your words? Co'z I feel like I wanna scream "Putang Ina" inside the office where I work. 

Its around 5pm and everybody has their thing to do. Agents taking calls, TMs checking their agents and we are checking everybody. If you still can remember the UK man that I told you who scolded me for speaking my native tongue, well here is another one worst scenario that has really irritated my day. I don't know why every time ha pass us by I feel like i wanna throw up on his face and have him clean my mess. Gee. This man has really give me the reason to hate being in this campaign. 

He passed us by, me and my colleague. He said "Good afternoon!" with that smile on his face. We need not answer co'z we are too busy with our tasks. But to our surprise he shouted again "Good afternoon!" and we jsut simply looked at him and raised are eye brows. What the fuck does he want? He wanted to be treated like his greetings should be responded? What the hell is the matter with him?

When he still got no reply from us, he looked at us and tried to wait for some words to come out from our mouth. But to no avail he did not receive any words from us. Who the hell cares with his good afternoon? 

To give you some clue, let's put a name into this creature. Let's call him "Mr. Laba Dami". Great name co'z it fits him. 

An hour and a half before my shift ends, my boss called our extension and he want me to go down on his office. I went there and was coached for the previous day's incident (native tongue speaking). But what really surprised me was the fact that Mr. Laba Dami has already dubbed me as "the-guy-with-black-nails" so my boss asked me if I was wearing black manicured nails. I said "yes! the other day when Laba Dami scolded me". It came to my realization that I was dubbed as such because he cannot even remember my name. 

Things like this are apparent in the office. Right now, everything is starting to get clear for me. I need to vacate my position and better look for another office before I could shout at his face. I ain't afraid with him. He is just a stranger in our country. Strangers does not have the right to rule over everybody else especially if he was not on his position to tell me what to do and not to do inside my homeland. 

I am considering the next 2 months as the trial and error part of my journey with my current company. Could get worse during this span of time, quitting is my last option and putting my middle finger up on his face will be my last hurrah!

An Employees Pride

So goes the day today. I am on rest after terrible days at work. Terrible co'z it brought out all the stress and exhaustion in me. I wonder if I can ever live this way while staying in the company. 

The past few weeks has been crucial for us who are left behind. I mean, some of our colleagues have already bade farewell to us and took a new journey in the other company. Sad but we need to focus on what's left for ur us. Me and the remaining people in our department. 

Just last night, I wondered how things have changed this way, DRASTICALLY! Was it due to some competitive price offered or the stress in workload given? Wast it about the management or the person's own decision?

Just last night, I have been scolded for talking my native tongue by someone who I can say has not got the right to tell me since he stands on my native country. I know that it was a policy for the company but screw the policy. This is the Philippines. Our native language is Tagalog and nobody can stop me from talking as such. 

This head-of-the-crappy-campaign that we are put into was such a nobody actually. He just walks around and listens to people talking and when he hears someone talking our native tongue, Progressive Disciplinary! Hello!

This company has been acting weird for the past couple of months. No wonder people come and people go. People stay but with angst to say things against the management. Such a loser company. Such a bunch of hideous management and such a place full of crappy rules.

I am about to turn 3 years in the company. This company has proved me wrong that I can stay here as long as they need me and my service, but not! I am starting to see an empty future continuing my stay with this hell-of-a-place. I have got a lot of options before but i stayed because the workmates I have are super and has been giving me the reason to stay. They are the only people who I can say I can trust and spend time with during lunch break and smoke sessions. They are my family in this company and not the whole management. 

Few days back, I got this call from one company asking if I can come to their office for an interview. I declined the invitation because leaving my current office will mean a new beginning, a new adjustment and a new environment to start my life. My friends and my favorites here will be the one I miss so much thus I declined the chance to take a new step in a new horizon. 

Well, ranting and venting out through this page is the only way that I can think of because no matter how we talk in the office or no matter how we let them see that we don't like the new things existing, new rules, we are still but poor employees and sooner everybody will be saying goodbye to this place called "The Crap of all BPOs". 

Offense meant.

Cases of the Ex(es): girlfriends, crushes and childhood sweet hearts

Lately I have been bombarded with a lot of questions regarding my ex(es) including girlfriend, crushes and child hood sweet hearts. But the case remains under my decision if I am to tell every what had happened with my past relationships. I am not trying to spill it out though to get those attentions from them but in some ways, I felt guilty and jealous every time I tried to stop by their pages in Facebook. 

Now let's say I don't really go for formal courtship. I mean, I am not used to do it the traditional way but through a letter. Some of this girls have received my letter and some were not but have heard it by hearsay. 

Here is, by the way, the list of them and i tend not to mention their real names (but I did. They won't read this anyway.) co'z there is someone who is tying to find them. I ain't hiding them though its just that I just don't want to spoil our relationship co'z better did my partner know how my feelings are now. 

Ex(es) List (girlfriends, crushes and childhood love) :

1. Jenalyn Alas - I haven't heard about her since we separated ways on high school. The lats time I know, my batch mates just told me that she's got a family now. She was the very first love I know in grade one and up until now, I have been wanting to see her and maybe spend time to talk about the good old days. The best thing about us though is that we are competitors inside the classroom but never did we compete outside and through hearts. She has been my ultimate love that lasted for more than 3 years, from first to 3rd grade (^_^).

2. Ann Charcos - I am about 5 years older than her and yes she captured my heart. Its funny how I started to let her know my feelings. I have her cousins bring the letter to her but asked them not to mention where did it came from. Every night, if we have time to play (I was around 13 and he was around 8 years old), her cousins always give us time to be in solo thus giving me the urge to feel heaven when Im with her. I got her picture still kept in my wallet until now. It has been long years now and I haven't heard from this lady. All I know is that she is working abroad, a lawyer as i heard in UK. 

3. Inday - I forgot her real name but this girl has chinese eyes and every boys crush in our place. Good thing I have the advantage co'z only I has the access to come and go in their house. Strict parents. I tried courting her but I then found out that she was already my buddy's girlfriend. Damn! How stupid of me trying to steal her from a friend. But, it never ended there. There was a time when things cleared out between her and my friend so i dig in and do the moves again. We go out, we have fun and go dancing. The rest is a sad history.


These are the girls who have been part of my early awakenings emotionally. 

4. Mildred M.

5. Maureen

6. April Rose

7. Kristine V

8. Althea Mae

9. Rachelle T.

10. Junna A

11. Janice Grace L.

13. Charisse

14. Queenie Falcon

The list is incomplete. I forgot the other girls. ^_^

Minus the Virtual World for a Week

“Mercy Mercy Me”




It has been a week when I isolated myself from the virtual world and all I can say is that its worth the chance to live like how I dealt with the day. One week and all I did was bore myself with DVD marathon and music tripping.



I am on my “nth” time watching those Disney Classic fairy-tales-turned-movies. Cinderella, Snow White, Rapunzel (of which was changed to “Tangled”), Anastacia, Sleeping beauty (Aurora, now I can’t forget Sleeping Beauty’s name), The Little Mermaid and some Pixar and Dreamworks cartoon themed movies.



Gees! I can almost memorize the episodes of Glee Season 1 and memorize the lines on “Meg Ryan and Tom Hanks starrer “You’ve Got Mail”. That’s how bored I was when I decided to put the virtual world out of my senses first.



Well, aside from watching movies on DVD and listening to music, I indulged myself on picking up some good read on my shelf. The Little Princess is the book that I am currently reading. Was about to start again Tuesdays with Morrie but I don’t want teary eyed after I read the book. Though I might have already read it but I can’t help myself to grab it still in the future. In the meantime, I am allowing my hands to grab the Princess Sara book.



Just this day, I started to coddle myself with the virtual world thus blogging is what I first think of. No use co’z my fingers typed www.facebook.com first. Gees! Silly fingers!



Anyways, another month will soon pass and we are on the Love month in the next 1 day. Pretty thinking of what to do though. I don’t have any idea yet on how I would spend that special day.

Same Same - Love Isn't

You Are The Reason - Ketama

 I remembered this song and I happen to sing it in the office which my colleague Chona notice and liked the song though thus we played it in youtube and  I would just like to share this song. Its the message of the song that counts.





How can I forget
the longings of my heart
It's you I think of
night and day

I know I couldn't touch you
I know I couldn't hold you
though I wish I'm really close
to stare for you

You are the reason
the seasons of my life
You're everything I wish
and live for

Give me an answer
Show me the way
You're breakin me
Leaving me in pain/vain?

You're the burning flame
In my heart and in my mind
In the silence of the night
I can hear you

My thoughts are all about you
Alive and True to me
But now I really have you
Only in dreams

You are the reason
the seasons of my life
You're everything I wish
and lived for

Give me an answer
Show me the way
You're breakin me
Leaving me in pain

Loving You changes everything
It's giving me the strenght
And It's all because of you..

You're the burning flame
In my heart and in my mind
In the silence of the night
I can hear you

I know I couldn't touch you
I know I couldn't hold you
though I wish I'm really close
To stare for you

[chorus]

Bob Ong, Mitch Albom and Elizabeth Gilbert and the dancing Johnny Rocket's Crew

Just as planned, me and Wea Olympia, a former office mate turned close friend went for some winding activities after spending boring hours at home and has enough of watching DVD marathon, browsing the virtual world etc. Originally the meeting place was in Trinoma but we decided to met up in Robinson's Galleria. 

I always end up the early bird for met ups. I always wanted not to be late thus the spare time was spent strolling around the mall and doing some window shops but every time I am in front of a book shop, there is always this magnet that brings me inside. 

Scan from shelf to shelf, books to books, volume of books around and none is coming in my mind on what to pick. I then come up to the fiction section of National Bookstore and saw some lights heading my way. Gees! I remembered that I need to get some new books to add on my shelf.

Picking something has not been a problem for me unless I accidentally bumped in the bookstore and left with nothing to think about to pick. IM proud though co'z this time, I completed that books by Bob Ong by picking the latest one out, "Ang Mga  Kaibigan ni Mama Susan". But not only that, Julia Roberts smiled at me when I saw her on Elizabeth Gilbert's "Eat Pray Love" novel. I have already watched the movie and I need a deeper look on how the story goes in the book. I know it was a good watch and I'd say I hope the book can tell me more about the movie.

 

My fascination for books did not stop there though co'z after i grabbed that last copy of Gilbert's, Mitch Albom peeped in and tried to give me some hint that I need another book that he wrote after I purchased the "The Five People You Meet In Heaven". Hmm. I got to pick one and I know I need to have "Tuesdays With Morrie" since I have heard a lot about the book positively recognized. 

The time ended with me having the 3 above books added on my shelf and off to wait for Madam Chimpampu (thats how I call Wea).

I looked for a place to take some smoke break after the hour roaming inside the mall. I went to the smoking area outside the second floor and there I saw this newly opened food shops and restaurants on that floor. 

While puffing some fags, my eyes roamed around the area co'z I feel everything was new to me. And yes, everything and every store were newly established on that floor. Wonder it slipped my mind. Have I not been gone to Robinson's for a long time?

Then goes the 80's pop song "Build Me Up (Buttercup) on my background on a loud aura. I hummed along and sing along with the song only to find out that when I turned my neck to my back, the Johnny Rockets Hamburger Crew where dancing along with the music. At least 5 were on the floor dancing, 2 waitresses, 2 waiters and the manager situated in the middle. Dancing along with that 80s was actually fun to look at. Fun in the sense that they are trying to grab everybody's attention at that wee hour of the afternoon. Hmmm. They are actually cute to look at. 

It was a part of their promotion though as they have just opened that branch on that day.

Tuesdays With Morrie - Mitch Albom

While I was writing this blog, I still can feel how the book touch me emotionally. My tear ducts can explain why I was so moved by this book. The spirit of what the book should tell you surround my whole being. I was deeply touched by this life changing reality based book by Mitch Albom. There have been a lot of things that brought realization and that has opened my inner eyes from the reality about life. Things which are really too simple to think about but we reject to do and live the other way around. Those few simple things that we could have done to negate the norms in a positive way.

I was overwhelmed by that fact that life  is not just about those things we see and those things we have or those things we need to have. Its about learning in the everyday process if you would only take time to see yourself while passing each road to get a deal for your life. 

Mitch Albom has shared his spare knowledge of things that he learned from his coach, Morrie Schwartz. Through this book, millions of lives could learn that there was one time a great person born who shared things in his own perspective but has been leaving a legacy to deal with ourselves own problems with life. This can start a pace for each individual to take a turn and consider things that he or she might read in the book. Reap what you sow, learn from what you will read in this book.

If I have the power to turn back time while I am on this age, I would also like to feel how Morrie Schwartz touch people's live. I would like to spare my time listening to his teaching. I would like to sit with him under that Japanese tree while listening to him. If this is the way to pick up myself by my downfalls, so be it. I would like Morrie to be my Coach, my teacher, my friend, my comrade, my dance partner and my second father.

Dear Mitch,

Thank you for sharing this knowledge spared to you by Morrie. I am starting to see where my weakest and strongest points in my inner self after I read this thesis that you have worked with Morrie. Its has, in some ways, enlightened my mind on how to do with life, deal with love, culture and best of all living not just for the material things. I still cannot forget the way I understand the pain you felt when a good friend left you but with a pride that he has left a lot of things that opted you go on and live the way how you absorbed your Coach's teachings and lessons. If only I have the time to share my life with Morrie too, I would really appreciate the feeling you felt on those times you talk with him.

Thank you for sharing this book. Its is now in my shelf and I would say I m picking this as my number one favorite book.

>Brix<

I hope that you can spare a time reading this book too. See how it would let you feel the real essence of why we are living in this world.

Reminiscing 911: The Day We Found Love

Mushy Love songs of the 90s will always be good to lsiten to.

Reminiscing Dawn Dineros: Changing and Giving Ways

Changing And Giving Ways
-=Dawn Dineros=-

Words simple as maybe
Yet honest passionate feelings can only come
From deep within a loving heart
And caring heart
Almost a decade, how long has it been

REFRAIN
But time has failed to fade
Our love, the undying love
As it grows, fonder and stronger
I'm recollecting, awaking
Memories of the past

CHORUS
Could I ever forget
Electrifying loving times
Shared in golden silence that only
Our hearts come throbbing and
As life slowly pass us by
While those childlike carefree youth
Are only bygones and love's greatness
Changing and giving ways

CODA
Changing and giving ways
Changing and giving ways
Ohh... ohh

When loving you from afar
How my heart desires your warm embrace
Burning kisses from your playful lips
Deep inside of me
All sweetness and tenderness
(repeat refrain)
(repeat chorus 2x)

CODA
Changing and giving ways
Changing and giving ways
Ohh... ohh
Lai lai lai
Changing and giving ways