Minus the Virtual World for a Week

“Mercy Mercy Me”




It has been a week when I isolated myself from the virtual world and all I can say is that its worth the chance to live like how I dealt with the day. One week and all I did was bore myself with DVD marathon and music tripping.



I am on my “nth” time watching those Disney Classic fairy-tales-turned-movies. Cinderella, Snow White, Rapunzel (of which was changed to “Tangled”), Anastacia, Sleeping beauty (Aurora, now I can’t forget Sleeping Beauty’s name), The Little Mermaid and some Pixar and Dreamworks cartoon themed movies.



Gees! I can almost memorize the episodes of Glee Season 1 and memorize the lines on “Meg Ryan and Tom Hanks starrer “You’ve Got Mail”. That’s how bored I was when I decided to put the virtual world out of my senses first.



Well, aside from watching movies on DVD and listening to music, I indulged myself on picking up some good read on my shelf. The Little Princess is the book that I am currently reading. Was about to start again Tuesdays with Morrie but I don’t want teary eyed after I read the book. Though I might have already read it but I can’t help myself to grab it still in the future. In the meantime, I am allowing my hands to grab the Princess Sara book.



Just this day, I started to coddle myself with the virtual world thus blogging is what I first think of. No use co’z my fingers typed www.facebook.com first. Gees! Silly fingers!



Anyways, another month will soon pass and we are on the Love month in the next 1 day. Pretty thinking of what to do though. I don’t have any idea yet on how I would spend that special day.

Same Same - Love Isn't

You Are The Reason - Ketama

 I remembered this song and I happen to sing it in the office which my colleague Chona notice and liked the song though thus we played it in youtube and  I would just like to share this song. Its the message of the song that counts.





How can I forget
the longings of my heart
It's you I think of
night and day

I know I couldn't touch you
I know I couldn't hold you
though I wish I'm really close
to stare for you

You are the reason
the seasons of my life
You're everything I wish
and live for

Give me an answer
Show me the way
You're breakin me
Leaving me in pain/vain?

You're the burning flame
In my heart and in my mind
In the silence of the night
I can hear you

My thoughts are all about you
Alive and True to me
But now I really have you
Only in dreams

You are the reason
the seasons of my life
You're everything I wish
and lived for

Give me an answer
Show me the way
You're breakin me
Leaving me in pain

Loving You changes everything
It's giving me the strenght
And It's all because of you..

You're the burning flame
In my heart and in my mind
In the silence of the night
I can hear you

I know I couldn't touch you
I know I couldn't hold you
though I wish I'm really close
To stare for you

[chorus]

Bob Ong, Mitch Albom and Elizabeth Gilbert and the dancing Johnny Rocket's Crew

Just as planned, me and Wea Olympia, a former office mate turned close friend went for some winding activities after spending boring hours at home and has enough of watching DVD marathon, browsing the virtual world etc. Originally the meeting place was in Trinoma but we decided to met up in Robinson's Galleria. 

I always end up the early bird for met ups. I always wanted not to be late thus the spare time was spent strolling around the mall and doing some window shops but every time I am in front of a book shop, there is always this magnet that brings me inside. 

Scan from shelf to shelf, books to books, volume of books around and none is coming in my mind on what to pick. I then come up to the fiction section of National Bookstore and saw some lights heading my way. Gees! I remembered that I need to get some new books to add on my shelf.

Picking something has not been a problem for me unless I accidentally bumped in the bookstore and left with nothing to think about to pick. IM proud though co'z this time, I completed that books by Bob Ong by picking the latest one out, "Ang Mga  Kaibigan ni Mama Susan". But not only that, Julia Roberts smiled at me when I saw her on Elizabeth Gilbert's "Eat Pray Love" novel. I have already watched the movie and I need a deeper look on how the story goes in the book. I know it was a good watch and I'd say I hope the book can tell me more about the movie.

 

My fascination for books did not stop there though co'z after i grabbed that last copy of Gilbert's, Mitch Albom peeped in and tried to give me some hint that I need another book that he wrote after I purchased the "The Five People You Meet In Heaven". Hmm. I got to pick one and I know I need to have "Tuesdays With Morrie" since I have heard a lot about the book positively recognized. 

The time ended with me having the 3 above books added on my shelf and off to wait for Madam Chimpampu (thats how I call Wea).

I looked for a place to take some smoke break after the hour roaming inside the mall. I went to the smoking area outside the second floor and there I saw this newly opened food shops and restaurants on that floor. 

While puffing some fags, my eyes roamed around the area co'z I feel everything was new to me. And yes, everything and every store were newly established on that floor. Wonder it slipped my mind. Have I not been gone to Robinson's for a long time?

Then goes the 80's pop song "Build Me Up (Buttercup) on my background on a loud aura. I hummed along and sing along with the song only to find out that when I turned my neck to my back, the Johnny Rockets Hamburger Crew where dancing along with the music. At least 5 were on the floor dancing, 2 waitresses, 2 waiters and the manager situated in the middle. Dancing along with that 80s was actually fun to look at. Fun in the sense that they are trying to grab everybody's attention at that wee hour of the afternoon. Hmmm. They are actually cute to look at. 

It was a part of their promotion though as they have just opened that branch on that day.

Tuesdays With Morrie - Mitch Albom

While I was writing this blog, I still can feel how the book touch me emotionally. My tear ducts can explain why I was so moved by this book. The spirit of what the book should tell you surround my whole being. I was deeply touched by this life changing reality based book by Mitch Albom. There have been a lot of things that brought realization and that has opened my inner eyes from the reality about life. Things which are really too simple to think about but we reject to do and live the other way around. Those few simple things that we could have done to negate the norms in a positive way.

I was overwhelmed by that fact that life  is not just about those things we see and those things we have or those things we need to have. Its about learning in the everyday process if you would only take time to see yourself while passing each road to get a deal for your life. 

Mitch Albom has shared his spare knowledge of things that he learned from his coach, Morrie Schwartz. Through this book, millions of lives could learn that there was one time a great person born who shared things in his own perspective but has been leaving a legacy to deal with ourselves own problems with life. This can start a pace for each individual to take a turn and consider things that he or she might read in the book. Reap what you sow, learn from what you will read in this book.

If I have the power to turn back time while I am on this age, I would also like to feel how Morrie Schwartz touch people's live. I would like to spare my time listening to his teaching. I would like to sit with him under that Japanese tree while listening to him. If this is the way to pick up myself by my downfalls, so be it. I would like Morrie to be my Coach, my teacher, my friend, my comrade, my dance partner and my second father.

Dear Mitch,

Thank you for sharing this knowledge spared to you by Morrie. I am starting to see where my weakest and strongest points in my inner self after I read this thesis that you have worked with Morrie. Its has, in some ways, enlightened my mind on how to do with life, deal with love, culture and best of all living not just for the material things. I still cannot forget the way I understand the pain you felt when a good friend left you but with a pride that he has left a lot of things that opted you go on and live the way how you absorbed your Coach's teachings and lessons. If only I have the time to share my life with Morrie too, I would really appreciate the feeling you felt on those times you talk with him.

Thank you for sharing this book. Its is now in my shelf and I would say I m picking this as my number one favorite book.

>Brix<

I hope that you can spare a time reading this book too. See how it would let you feel the real essence of why we are living in this world.

Reminiscing 911: The Day We Found Love

Mushy Love songs of the 90s will always be good to lsiten to.

Reminiscing Dawn Dineros: Changing and Giving Ways

Changing And Giving Ways
-=Dawn Dineros=-

Words simple as maybe
Yet honest passionate feelings can only come
From deep within a loving heart
And caring heart
Almost a decade, how long has it been

REFRAIN
But time has failed to fade
Our love, the undying love
As it grows, fonder and stronger
I'm recollecting, awaking
Memories of the past

CHORUS
Could I ever forget
Electrifying loving times
Shared in golden silence that only
Our hearts come throbbing and
As life slowly pass us by
While those childlike carefree youth
Are only bygones and love's greatness
Changing and giving ways

CODA
Changing and giving ways
Changing and giving ways
Ohh... ohh

When loving you from afar
How my heart desires your warm embrace
Burning kisses from your playful lips
Deep inside of me
All sweetness and tenderness
(repeat refrain)
(repeat chorus 2x)

CODA
Changing and giving ways
Changing and giving ways
Ohh... ohh
Lai lai lai
Changing and giving ways

Reminiscing Code Red: What Good is a Heart?

My taste of music is always changing every now adn then. I call myself a musically inclined person since i started singing and listening to songs around the elementary years. Geez.. That was too long ago and I can't even remember what was my fave song by then co'z I was to inclined with OPM (Original Philippine Music) such as those songs of Sheryl Cruz, Timmy Cruz, Tina Paner, Smokey Mountain, Janet Arnaiz etc. Few of you might have not heard of their songs yet but I could say that sometimes during that era, it was so good to my ears.

Anyways, its about Code Red though that I want to reminisce this time. I jsut so happen to browse http://www.youtube.com/ and found this one fave song from them, "What Good is a Heart" and I just want to share this reminisicing to everybody.



Gees. I remember me and my friends dancing along with the steps in the video. That was wayback high school then.

haven't heard of Code Red now. The last time I heard about them is that they both ahve their lives to live.

"The Last Song" - Nicholas Sparks on Movie (Miley Cyrus)

The last time I checked myself, I was never really a sentimental fool or someone who loves to cry while watching a movie. I admit that when I was younger, I use to cry over some Filipino dramatic movies though. And, I was never really a big fun of Miley Cyrus. No offense meant though but I like how she acted on the movie that I have just finished watching, "The Last Song". She was not the typical teeny-idol Miley who plays the role Ronnie (short for Veronica) and the theme was more mature for her than her previous roles on TV and movies. 

Plus one thing that give me the focus to watch it was because it is another Nicholas Sparks story-based movie whom we all know he is good with tragical love and family stories. 

The thing is, I have bought this DVD last year and it was on my collection for months now and I never had the chance too watch it so soon as my mind tells me that it would be another Miley teeny-moive. But I was wrong. 

Nicholas Sparks is known for some books that were featured in the big screen. Among were "A Walk To Remember" that starred Mandy Moore and Shane West which was another tragical love story. His book "Message In A Bottle" starring Meg Ryan and Bruce Willis were also turned into film and that was really one great love story which started from a message in a bottle thrown and floating in the sea and was handed to someone who was curious whom the message was from. 

For this movie though, "The Last Song", it was about family ties, friendship and love in one thus making the story something that everybody can relate to. I was touched by the movie honestly speaking. If I only knew that it was a good movie, I should have watched it a lot of times now and I will do that.

 One more thing that had made my eyes stuck to the movie were the good actors playing the important roles. The child in the right is Bobby Coleman, one good child actor who has played the sister of Ronnie (Miley) and I would say that he was so touching and he wholeheartedly shared his piece of acting and making it like something real. Gees. This kid is a whiz in the drama scenes. I salute his best acting in the movie. 

 Well, veteran actor Greg Kinnear has always been one of my favorite actors. He is good with this genre of movie as well as suspense. His superb role in the movie was acting as the father of Ronnie and all he wanted was to see his children before he dies as he was diagnosed with cancer and that his life is soon to lapse. His kids later knew this situation and has made some emotional changes for both Ronnie and Jonah (played by Miley and Bobby). What i liked with him is that he is acting naturally and with just facial expression you can read what he is trying to say before he could say it.

Kelly Preston has always been a pretty face in the camera. Despite of the cameo role (co'z she has only done few scenes), she has never fade. She has always been a good actress and I just can't take my eyes away from here face when the camera takes a face shot on her. Stunning lady and non-aging. Always have been acting as mother's of teen actresses (remember her movie with Amanda Bynes, "What A Girl Wants"?) Damn! I will always love this Kelly Preston woman.

Have watch Liam Hemsworth movies before but I guess I need to watch more of his movies. In "The Last Song", he might have played one great role but it was just to light that he was not able to give his best I guess. So far though, he was perfect for a low-profile rich son in the movie. I guess he would do more light drama and chick flicks and everybody would love him especially the ladies.

And then came Miley Cyrus, the main character of the movie. I hope she would get more mature roles again in her next movies co'z she is not getting any younger. The character fits her in  the movie and it was a more mature Miley that I saw.

For a scale of 10, 10 as the highest, I would say the movie sits at 8. Despite of being a light drama, love story, their approach abut family values has always been one turning point to realize after watching he movie.

My Sister's Triumph: UPCAT Results, PASSED!!!!

UPCAT 2011 Result (partially taken)

It is always surprising to see your sister's name passing some sort of exam. Being in UP (University of the Philippines) is one great dream that I know I tried to reach or just passing their assessment exam is one great deal to start a career. I know i have wasted so much time dreaming to be one of the students in UP but now that there is someone who could fulfill that dream, I guess I am more than happy of what I have dreamt of. 

Riza Marie Ambe Erezo - Student number - 2011 -39242 passing the exam is a great news to start the year. That is my sister. Our dear little sister whom we are counting on to fulfill each family member's dream. A little, petite and bright girl who we see have took all the genes from us. LOL! 

I am sad though co'z she choose to stay in the Tacloban Campus. We have relatives in their but I assume that we never have met them yet. At least a bunch of them. My mom's side is from Tacloban and Leyte and we are hoping that things will work out for my sister if she still choose to be with UP. 

Wherever my father is right now, I know she is too proud of his favorite daughter.

This is for our TATAY!

A Post Christmas Post

It has been just 4 days when the new year came in. Looking at those Christmas lights and the gaily decorated Christmas tree inside our apartment, I then realize its funny how time was so fast. I can still feel the warmth of happiness i felt when we bought the Christmas decorations and now I am to undress the tree and give time for the lights to temporarily rest and back by the next 362 days or less. 

Undressing the Christmas tree, i feel like there has been some mishaps on the holiday by the way i see it. There has been something that has let me wonder why I am so early to keep the decorations and wait till the next yule season to come. Maybe it was when i see myself I was in a situation where everything has caused me pain. 

Sad but I have to wait for the right time to forget those. I got to move on and continue.

The holiday maybe over but the pain i felt on that holiday was way beyond i couldn't imagine. I doubt if I still can think properly.

A song without a tune and Rhyme (January 3 4:19 AM)

For whatever it takes
Im ready to let this feeling show
No matter how i let you see
You are so blind to see the best in me

For whatever i know
I can only be someone your eyes wont see
Someone who you never can turn to
But i will be waiting when you call on me

Time and i will let you go
BUt now, all i can hope is jsut to be with you
coz when you're near
the colors of the world sinks to my soul
and your beauty shines above all

It would take time
for you to feel that i am here today
my doors are always open everytime i see you
passing by

Coz you are the apple of my eye
Believing that someday you'll be mine
YOu maybe jsut an inch away
but you are world apart from me

Selfishly Starting The Year

Funny how the day turned out to be. Its almost the 2nd day of the new year and when i got here in the office, acquaintances show affection, greetings on my birthday and a talk with my long lost friends had made me feel like its still worth living in this world.

I ended up asleep for the whole afternoon thus i never knew that this day is almost passing me by and i got to wait for anotehr 365 days before this special day comes. I am still happy though that i reached 30 on this life. I could never ask for more but good health and good physique for this year though i know there will be times that i am seeing myself alone. As i blogged, I will be on my own for this year and no one can hind me from doing things that i want to do.

I am thank ful for the warm virtual hug shown by one of my friends, Rachel Bray, and the quick conversation we shared. I missed her. She is one of my confidante when I am facing troubled times. I tried to hide in Facebook but she saw me and give me that warm hug. She heared me out that I was really thankful for having her in my circle of comrades.

Before this day end, a new chapter is opening and I would like to start it with the word SELFISHNESS: Chapter 1 for the year 2011. I have always been asking myself for many times how i have lived with people trying to rule my life so this time it is my great turn for selfish decisions.

I Was Born Today 30 years ago; but i am not here

My first post for the year 2011 along with celebrating my special natal day. It is indeed my birthday today but I seem not seeing the essence of a celebration. I was asleep for the whole afternoon yesterday waiting for miracles and blessings but when I woke up, the same old feeling of being left out. Sad and I am so being rude before the year starts.

Anyways, I got to thank a lot of person who text me and sent some message with those "HAPPY BIRTHDAYS and HAPPY NEW YEAR!! I appreciate the thought of it and I mean it. Its just that I'd rather be silent today and stop thinking about this damn birthday thing co'z its just give me the time to think of the people I hated on this day. Literally, I mean hate!!!

I hate them because I expected for so much. Now I know that too much expectations can only ruin my belief that happiness is just around the corner. Sometimes we need to believe that miracles aren't real and that expect the worst of everything or you will end up wetting your pillow for the whole damn year. 

I always wanted to be happy on this day and since this is my 30th birthday, I now realize that life really starts here. At this very age and at this very point. I don't want to wonder how is it possible but the hang of it is now enveloping me whole. Sad but that is what I have perceived. 

1. 

Since its my 30th year, I got 30 list of unexpected wishes.

1. I wish I never lived.
2. I wish I never lived.
3. I wish I never lived. 
4. I wish I never lived. 
5. I wish I never lived.
6. I wish I never lived. 
7. I wish I never lived. 
8. I wish I never lived.
9. I wish I never lived. 
10. I wish I never lived.
11. I wish I never lived.
12. I wish I never lived.
13. I wish I never lived.
14. I wish I never lived.
15. I wish I never lived.
16. I wish I never lived.
17. I wish I never lived.
18. I wish I never lived.
19. I wish I never lived.
20. I wish I never lived.
21. I wish I never lived.
22. I wish I never lived.
23. I wish I never lived.
24. I wish I never lived.
25. I wish I never lived.
26. I wish I never lived.
27. I wish I never lived.
28. I wish I never lived.
29. I wish I never lived.
30. I wish I never lived.

Surprisingly, reality has moved my senses. I was born invisible ever since. And surprisingly, I lived in this world alone but has been communicating with this creatures called homo sapiens. I am an alien. I was never real and I was never been here, really. 

Thirty years has been long enough to figure this thing out of myself. I mean, if I have only known from the start, I wouldn't have choose this sole journey. I would have remained someone unnoticed until my last breath. I wouldn't have changed my history and I wouldn't have been involved with this great thing called life. Its an amazing fact though that despite of this reality, I was able to survive. Me survived this realms of opaque possibilities. Me survived this hideous world of deception, lies and emotional terrorism. That's how I have been after all this years. 

 

If I would be given a chance to live another decade, I would choose then to just put myself in my own cell and shield myself with my own world neglecting the people whom I call special and giving myself a break to take what my mind come up with. Gracefully would exit every time I am in a crowd or would rather be left alone in a deserted island with those Blue October hymns playing on my background. A grand of the grandest when it comes to being left out. Just as I thought, I am good being invisible. I am good with pretending to be present but actually I was not around. That is the real me. The real me who never believe in this so called life. 

Anyways, its time to blow this imaginary candle on this imaginary cake covered with imaginary icing given to me with imaginary. Whoosh! Blows the winds and off the lights. My wish are now traveling together with the uncertainties of the directions of the winds. Alas! Reality of life!