the heck with new year...my last post for the worst year

We haven't even landed yet on the year but it seems this is a worst year for me. I know myself very well and yes the mirage of the late 2010 has been one reason why I would say this could be a worst year for me.

Looking back, 2010 has been one great sorrowful time for my family co'z this year marks a special date that we could never forget until the day we die. My father died on April 10, 2010 and in the same date is my mother's birthday thus a very special date we dare not forget.

This has been one year of chaotic relationships and I would like to change everything leaving myself the sole owner of my decisions. In the most simple word, SELFISHNESS!

Expect the worst top come in 2011. They said life starts at 30 and I choose to live it my way. No hesitations, no second thoughts, no families, no lovers, no friends can stop my decisions. I am me and will know what bad for me in 2011.  I would like to see myself dead before the year ends again.  Who cares?

I have been living a messed up life for almost all of the 3 decades that i exist in this world. Why not make it worst than worst?

RPGs and the cutest I'm currently playing

I found a game that's pretty cute and interesting. Actually this was introduced to me by my office mates. Just a quick background of the game, if you happen to play GUNBOUND before, this is a cute version of it though they are not made by the same group. 

  

DDTank is the name of the game.

My Character: A female character would give you advantage when it comes to items. Most of the items for female are permament.

I am currently a level 15 female DDtanker and here is a peek on what are the current items I using. 

Here are some snap shots of my character while attending a wedding and moon gazing outside the church.

On the aisle of the church

at the back seat

pretty cute lamps

I so love this co'z Jesus was the background and it seems that the picture is real

time for some flower pictures.

I always have been fascinated by RPGs. The first game I played was not a browser base one but some what like a simulation game for me. 

This was the very first online game I played in which my character was a mercenary.

Rakion was one the games I played as well but i was not to hooked with it.

Tantra was one of those games too but was not hooked as well. 

RAN Online

RAN Online was the only game I was really hooked and up until now, I still play the game with my SHAMAN, BRAWLER, SWORD and ACRHER characters. I have been playing this since i was hooked to it that I spent much effort, time and money just to gain level every time I'm facing the pc with my hands stuck in the mouse and keyboard. Addicted I was for this game.

A lot to fish in the net if you want to look for a better RPG or should I say that fits your personality. 

Starbucks GC and the "Deception Point"; or staring at someother elses thoughts

At last, I have used my P300.00 worth Starbucks Gift Certificate which I won as a price for the charade game we played during our Christmas party in Pansol, Laguna. I got myself my favorite Toffee Nut Frappe and a Banoffee Pie for my baby. Nothing beats a sit under those green Starbucks UMBRELLAS while looking around and sipping iced coffee while reading this book I picked up in Books For Less. Another addition to my collection, another Christmas present I serve for myself. Dan Brown's "Deception Point" is now invading my shelf to add up my collection. Well, I got to say this book was not yet made into a movie (as far as I know) but its a worthy read.

Talking about reading, have you ever been in a situation like you want to read what is running through some other else's mind? I bet I just did this night when I took a quick break alone in Starbucks. 

Not long before I found a comfy seat near the AC, there is this man in gray who came in and sit in front of the table I was in. I was busy by then reading Dan Brown so it slipped out of my mind that I am not alone in the place. When I took a chance to take a glance and try to grab some stare at the environment, I caught this man staring at my finger nails. Maybe he was trying to figure out what came into my mind and I colored my nails black. Gees! With that confused look, I realized that maybe he was thinking I am some sort of an emo-natic lad trying to dig in some place in Starbucks in which is inappropriate. Well, that's what i read on his mind. Never mind though, he left after he realized I was staring at him trying to ask him "You've got  problem man?" with the way I look. I never realized someone as big as him would be intimidated by a skinny lad like me. LOL.

This was not just one incident that marks this night. A family was gathered in one table with children and some kins. All dressed up like they are all giving their best shots in fashion and labels. Typically, I am not the sort of a guy who wears brands and trademarks. Simple. Striped black shirt, checkered brown shorts with black slippers, that's what I was wearing this night. 

Starbucks has been known to be a place for elites thus the word itself should coincide with the customers that should come and go in Starbucks. As I walked out the door after I order, this teenager from the table of the family I mentioned, followed my walking and staring at me from had to foot. Nay! What a face! I can read his mind trying to ask me "Who is this ill-fitted guy hanging in a place like this?". I just answered him with a wry smile and continued walking until I reached my seat. I tried to search for the teenager and I caught her still staring at me. So I said "You've got a problem kid?" Thus, she ended staring at me. 

What the heck with wearing something special for a place like this coffee house? I ain't born wit a good taste in fashion but I know how to be in a place like this one. The hell I care with them anyway. 

Last incident that made this night so to remember was when I pass by a food chain with call center agents taking their lunch, I guess (in McDonalds). I was then carrying Banoffee pie in left hand and my coffee on the right. My ears were stuck with the headset while playing was Nina's version of Kavana's Will You Wait For Me. The volume though is not that extent to hurt my ears thus I can still hear the environment aside from the music I am listening to. 

Yes, I heard them talking about me. Shoots! Am I the man of the hour? I guess not! Or maybe just an unexpected 15 minutes fame on this Christmas day. LOL. 

One from the table said, "What's with Starbucks that people are craving for their expensive coffee?" They thought that I haven't heard what they say so I took a look at their table and tried to seek for the girl who just uttered those words. I found her sitting at the left wearing that emo-fashioned look. NO wonder. SO i just smiled at her and converse with her thought. "What's with Starbucks? Nothing! Its just simply a place for people who loves coffee despite of the price. But not for people who can only afford regular fries and burger in Mcdonalds.

What a great night! I love this night.

What Do I Have Under My Christmas Tree?

It is always not a zero for me with gifts during Christmas. There are always presents under my tree. From a friend, a family, a boss or special someone and from me. 

So far, it was Miss Lhen Quizon, one of our bosses in the office, who gave me the first present for Christmas. It was wrapped in a recycled paper themed brown bag and that was a Body Shop Product. I liked it.

The second present was also a birthday present from Rizalyn Roca, one colleague from Bacolod, who sent a Calea, Blueberry Cheesecake. It was one of the best flavor I've tasted and I liked how it was layered. On top were the blueberry with some frosting in the sides. The second layered was the cheese flavored thing and the third layer was some nut. I don't know what type of nut was it but I am so sure that was one of the best cake I tasted. No wonder Riza sent one to me co'z she knows I would love it.

Hmmm.. Wonder what did i get for myself? A whole body massage at my favorite spa, Big Apple. Nothing beats a relaxed body after tremendous workloads and stress. I can still feel those special touch that turned my aching veins to being smooth and free. I have always wanted to get a whole body massage once a month just to sooth those crooked artillery inside my body.

That's as far that I can remember for now. I might need to watch out for New Year and see if people will remember an special occasion. LOL.

2010 Year End Look Back

Its not Christmas yet until 3 days from now. But if Santa would ask me "Have I been good this year?" for me to deserve some present, only my memory can answer. 

This is just a quick rundown on what had happened this year in my life. 

After getting the spot in Real Time Resource Dept in the company, my year started right. I celebrated my 29th birthday (that always fall on January 1...LOL.... (".)) with my friends. Barbecue and champagne on the eve of the 31st of Dec 2009 and birthday on 12:01 of the next year. Memorable co'z that was my first time celebrating my birthday with friends after 2 tremendous and sad years celebrating my birthday. 

April came when a sad news came to me. My father was taken to the hospital's ICU that it made my life worried. I have to get permission to pay a visit to my dad and 4 days later, I was beside him holding his hands and trying to calm him down and tell him I'm around. 

That was really the saddest part in my life. Four days later, my father died and with a promise, I told him that i will now stand as the bread-winner of the family. He died on April 10, 2010 in which was the date of my mother's natal day. My father put a reason to always remember him especially during my mom's birthday. Glum is what my companion for the next couple of days. Seeing him catching his last breath in front of us was the most tragic event in our family. At least, we are still keeping our hands crossed for a better future.

It was around the last week of April as well when a relationship of more than 4 years was about to end. This was the story of me and my partner. Depression was my company then so I needed someone who can comfort me but even my special someone was not around. I was left behind. I was isolated. I was neglected and nobody comforted me wholeheartedly. I did expect it to be shared with my Bhe but by then he was so fond with the new found group leaving me with melancholy and sadness. 

Such 2 tremendous things happened in just a month.

During this month though, I reunited with my long lost cousins and aunts. We haven't met in decades by then that their existence was like a dream fulfilled. They visited my father's wake. They are his sisters and nephews. They are his nieces. 

Despite of this sad stories, the next months were better though there were no special things that had happened but everything was worth remembering and worth sharing. 

I debut my first singing career in Tiendesitas' stage. On that night I was with my friends. Actually, that was not a professional singing but a request from my old friend whom I haven't seen for  a couple of months. That night made a history for me to like Neyo's Go On Girl. geez (shamefuL)

At work, there have been some lot of changes. People come and go that paying extra attention to them is a no no. Why? Co'z you will never know if they would stay with you for period of time or just passing by your road and off to their own journey again. Its hard to befriend people who come and go thus I stick with those who I really can share times with and who I know won't just leave early like the others did. Sad to think but that has been the trend at work this year. I'm lucky though to have been blessed with friends who find time to think of things before jumping in an unsure conclusion. 

My first RTR party together with the resource family happened this year as well. I may not have been to the previous resource gatherings but at least before the year ends, pictures say a lot that I enjoyed this family and that I pity myself for not attending the previous ones. The party was held in Pansol, Laguna with our Temporary Boss Bass Dassen and Susan Hall (EOP...when they are around). 

This year also marks my first time to step my feet in Mt. Makiling and took some pictures. Nature always fascinate me. Despite of the rainy weather, we did not allow it to stop us from taking pictures while viewing Laguna on that foggy afternoon. It was an amazing trip. 

I meet new friends and old friends. Classmates, frat mates, new faces, old faces. This year has been full of ups and downs that I can't fit in this page. Though, 2010 is soon to say bye bye and will never comeback, the memories is now plotted in this piece of virtual page. 

Goodbye 2010 and thanks for the memories.

FACEBOOK Status for year 2010: A Look Back

I just want to share my Facebook statuses for the year 2010.

 Such a memorable year to cherish. Looking forward for new statuses for the year 2011.