the heck with new year...my last post for the worst year

We haven't even landed yet on the year but it seems this is a worst year for me. I know myself very well and yes the mirage of the late 2010 has been one reason why I would say this could be a worst year for me.

Looking back, 2010 has been one great sorrowful time for my family co'z this year marks a special date that we could never forget until the day we die. My father died on April 10, 2010 and in the same date is my mother's birthday thus a very special date we dare not forget.

This has been one year of chaotic relationships and I would like to change everything leaving myself the sole owner of my decisions. In the most simple word, SELFISHNESS!

Expect the worst top come in 2011. They said life starts at 30 and I choose to live it my way. No hesitations, no second thoughts, no families, no lovers, no friends can stop my decisions. I am me and will know what bad for me in 2011.  I would like to see myself dead before the year ends again.  Who cares?

I have been living a messed up life for almost all of the 3 decades that i exist in this world. Why not make it worst than worst?