A Salute To A Filipino Hero, ANDRES BONIFACIO

Andres Bonifacio

Decades ago, when the Philippines was still under the hands of some foreign lands, a group of people immerged to fight for the Philippine' freedom. It was so hard that these groups should be stealth from the governing country. Our forefathers has been on greater heights of thinking on how to gain this liberty from Caucasians and Asians who wanted to dominate us , our country, our land. But our brave race were never born to be oppressed thus fighters are we Filipinos. 

Despite of the ups and downs of these battles against the other countries migrating in our land, we are now free from the bondages of the oppressors and we are now living a democratic life in this country called The Philippines. 

THank you to our great great forefathers who runned, fight and died for this Pearl of the Orient. And as traditions go, we salute one of those forefathers whom we owe our freedom, Andres Bonifacio.

Born on this day, November 30, 1863 in Tondo, Manila, Ka Andres is the eldest of the 6 siblings born to Santiago Bonifacio and Catalina de Castro. 

His noble job of defending the country was enormous as this has been a part of our history. Without him leading the KKK - Kataastaasang kagalanggalangang Katipunan ng mga Anak ng Bayan ("Highest and Most Respected Society of the Children of the Country"), Jose Rizal and the other Filipino freedom fighting groups will nto be able to pursue the seek for our own freedom in this land. 

Andres Bonifacio is one great hero that every Filipino is looking upon. He was the symbol of strength and a fighter and he will always be one great Filipino citizen who died for the sake of our land. 

This day is his 147th year of birth. Sadly, he has gone but with pride as the freedom of the Philippines is one of his greatest legacy that we are always looking back. 

Ka Andres, Salamat!

My Childish Heart; or Living Boring Life ( Yakitate Japan!!! )

I am 30 years old soon. An age where maturity should have gone deeper. Hmmm. But I can always be a child whenever i want to. I can always play those childish games or can act like one sometimes. LOL :D

Animes has been one great past time for me aside from reading books, watching DVD movies and suring the net. In this way, I still can feel that life need not be bound for boredom. 

During this era where competitions on soap operas, sitcoms and animes arouse, there are things that i need to consider why it should be a worthy watch. The theme, the characters and the wide array of lesson that we can learn. Of course we need to learn something from what we are watching. Its not just about the crave for your selfish emotional needs or spirtual guidance but as a whole. 

May it be a real person acting or a pen-drawn or computerized 3D animation as long as it fits this criteria I have, it will be a good watch.

Most animes though are far more on to strength fighting or bloody scenes. Some are lighter but still brutal to a child's imagination. But not Yakitate Japan! It's more on idealism, friendship, family, food fight and kinship for some other characters. 

A worthy watch for me. 

With such theme as bread-making and realizing a dream, I can almost fit myself to Azuma Kazuma who plays the innocent town boy who persuaded the world with his best craftmanship ever known to the bread world. All his creations were based on the real events he have encountered as he grew up with his sister and his grandparents.

To think, he has no formal education on the field that he is in to, but as the story goes, bearing the Solar Hands and the ability to adapt his baking with real experiences, Azuma succeeded in his every endeavour until he dominated the baking world by winning the 2nd Monaco CUp.

Azuma together with Kawachi, Suwabara, Tsukino, Kanmuri and the Manager comprises an ideal team that everybody should see. There might ahve been some scenes that are brutal than hilarious but I guess Japanese animes were really made that way for the main reason to enjoy while watching it. 

Yakitate Japan is one of my favorite animes that has always bring the child in me. Putting myself sometimes in Azuma Kazuma's shoes allows me to think that everything can be possible if you pursue and goes along with it. 

I never dreamt though of becoming a bread-maker but when I watch this anime, I started to seethe beauty in baking. The fun of kneading dough and the surprises of making an out of this world delicous bread that everybody can relate to. But i am not yet a bread-maker and I am hoping to become soon. 

Watching this anime is killing the boredom at times when i dont know what to do. Better be entertained with this rather sitting and watching the blankness of the horizon. Its nothing but a losser's doing.

YAKITATE JAPAN!!!!!

Mary Magdalene, Dan Brown, Christianity; or a Question of Faith?

If history is right, then everybody is living a Christian life with a lie. I guess this is what the Da Vinci Code is all about. 

I have seen the movie few times with Tom Hanks starred as the symbologist Robert Langdon. I would say that the movie itself reflects a big question about Christianity. But, this has been so open to me now since I started to read the book. I pity myself for not having Dan Brown's sense of thinking or experience. I wonder how did he knew all about this? How did he knew the places, dates and persons involved? I know thorough research, visiting the places and knowing the people were mostly the thing that Brown did to complete his book. 

What really caught my attention about these movie and book is the fact or fiction about Mary Magdalene playing a great role that may change our point of view in living a Christian life and believing that Jesus Christ is the sole saviour we have who propagated Christianity in the whole world. 

History tells us that Jesus and Mary's acquaintance started when Mary washed Jesus' feet and wiped it with her hair. Every bible tells this lore and we believe that this is what had happened. Aside from this, she was the first woman dubbed as the prostitute as far as i know. Reality though is far from this story as told by the keepers of the Holy Grail (Mary Magdalene). Mary Magdalene as foretold in the story is of a royal blood that her existence as Jesus' companion (its equal to spouse) needs to be hid. And so, Pagans started to change the story by building and coming up with ideas such as her being prostitute, she was just a part of the history of Jesus and his disciples but the fact is kept and as Brown's story goes, Magdalene is Jesus' wife and that she conceived Jesus Baby. 

 Mary Magdalene was not a big name for me until i read and understand Brown's book. Or shall I say that the movie itself, though might be fact or fiction, encouraged me to dig for reality about the existence of Mary Magdalene and Jesus Christ being together.


It might have been centuries ago when their story had happened but the fact that this has been one great topic to talk about as this concerns the whole world and every living Christian. We are bound to know the truth about this and we have the right to seek for some answers as this is a part of our existence as well.


Its not just that I have read the book by Dan Brown, Da Vinci Code or have watch the movie based on the book but I also have a DVD entitled "The Lost Tomb of Jesus Christ". In this medium, it tells us about Jesus' tomb and again, curiousity digs me when Mary Magdalene was mentioned again in this documentary. Mary Magdalene was Jesus' wife, they ahve a baby named Juda and that she was supposed to propagate te real Christianity.

Who is Mary Magdalene? Is she really is the one who Jesus has pass the right to propagate Christianity and the right doctrines of the religion? IS she really was Jesus's wife? Is she one of the Disciples? Is she the Holy Grail?


If reality arise that she is one divine woman whom we should have known the real religion, then this world has been living in a lie for centuries. A pity by then for our generation. Pagans should have known that truth always prevails if and only if REALITY about MARY MAGDALENE concludes.

Book Lover Me or the Book Based Movie 2

Another day when my eyes spotted the "Books for Less" in SM Hypermart. I stroll around and read titles to titles of books in shelves and 5 to-grab-for books landed on my hand. Here are the new books added on my shelf:

Dan Brown's "Da Vinci Code" and "Angels and Demons", Lauren Weisberger's 'The Devil Wears Prada" and Nicholas Sparks' "Message in a Bottle" and "A Walk To Remember".

Tom Hanks starred both on Dan Brown's books if we all still can remember. He played Robert Langdon, the main character on the books, in which his passion about symbols and icons has paved way for him to know more about the different signs, logos and symbols but has put his life on a rough journey to the fact about the faith that we have been living with for centuries now.

Meryl Streep and Anne Hathaway played the great roles in "Devil Wears Prada".

Meg Ryan And Bruce Willis played the two lovers in "Message in a Bottle". Their love story started when Meg Ryan threw a bottle in the sea and inside was some sort of a letter. It was found by Bruce Willis and due to curiousity, he tried to look for the one who has thrown and left that message in the bottle.  ANd the rest is history. 

Mandy Moore played the simple Jamie in "A Walk To Remember" and mind you, for girls this is a tear-jerker. It was actually a good movie.

All these are based on some novels and books which can be profounded if we read it rather than watching it. 

These five books costs P845.00 only. Its a good buy rather than picking it in an expensive bookstore.

P.S. 

Harry Potter Books, Josten Gaarder, Mitch Albom are next on my list and im praying to get them before the year ends.

Book Lover Me or the Book Based Movie

It is always my habit to stop by a bookstand or bookstore whenever I am in a mall or in a department store. Reading is one of my passion thus books has an important value in my life. Books can carry me to the scenes that im reading, can let me feel the pain, can put a smile on my face and can give me knowledge about life. 

I never had the chance to do this years ago but since I feel like i can do it now, I am starting to collect novels and books in which are basis of some great movies that we have had seen in the big screen. 

Just recently, before I watch Harry Potter 7: Deathly Hallows in Robinson's Galleria, I passed by "Bestsellers on the 3rd or 4th floor I guess opposite to the movie houses. Ofcourse, I took the chance to glance on some good read. I already ahve some books in my shelf and I guess i need more. 

By that time, lots of volume were on sale but since i still need to consider my budget, I picked up those which are enough to fit my budget. 

These are the books I picked that time: Little Women, The Little Princess and Sense and Sensibility

If you can still remember, the first 2 books above were on our TV screens. Remember Jo and Meg from Little Women? Or Sarah Crewe on the Little Princess? Both of these books were pretty good to me on screen but i guess i need to know more about what were those parts that I miss that i can only read in the book and was not shown on the screen. 

On the other hand, I am always a big fan of Jane Austen. After her Pride and Prejudice book and the famous character "Mr. Darcy" was screened, "Sense and Sensibility" came next which stars Kate Winslet ( I dont know if i got it right or i need to watch the DVD movie again). Jane Austen has always talk about reality and fantasy rolled in one. Both books are on my shelf now and its a worthy read. 

Books Books Books and more books are coming my way

15 Ways To Keep Relationship Working

I happened to browse down some notes while i was on boredom again. And this has caught my attention thus i just want to share this to everybody. 

1. Love each other

2. Don't lie

3. Keep communication open

4. Stay sweet

5. when you get hurt, talk about it and forgive and forget 

6. never talk about break-ups

7. never say it's okay even if its not

8. forget about pride

9. if you say sorry, mean it

10. dont compare your past to your present

11. dont talk about your stupid ex-s

12. practice give and take

13. be aware of his/her feelings

14. when you had a fight, dont let the day end without being fine

15. dont be perfect ones, be the right one.

I wish this would help.

Setting The Goal: The Resignation Commotion and a Promise that Can never be Broken

When i came in the office yesterday, i was bombarded with a lot of questions. Most of it was "Why did I resign?". Shocked and uncomfortable with the questions, i figured that there might have been one person spreading the rumor but I can't blame that person. 

First, I would like to apologize for hearing the fact that i did submitted my resignation to end my career with the current company on December 18th. Few might have been shocked with this but it was my own decision. 

Second, it was supposedly a secret but since our department is just a minute part of the company, I understand why it spread fast.

Third, there is a tendency that i might be leaving or I might not. Circumstances may arise and there are still a lot things that would happen along the way.

It was not my intention to scare the heads of my departure. In fact, it was just a formal way of my exit whatever my request would cost. I am to go back home by the 18th of December and that was the promise I uttered before my father died. This promise is so important to me that I am ready to leave my job just to accomplish this promise. The reason why I submitted the resignation is to let the management know that if by chance my leave request will not be approved, i still ahve the formality of rendering 30 days in the office before i depart. That was my main intention why I submitted the resignation letter.

I submitted it on the 19th of November its because if i have to do it later that those dates then i might end up going home on a latter date too which is a breach on my promised date. 

Once and for all, my resignation is not yet final as will as the leave approved. Everything is still laid on the table for proper judgment coz i dont want to hear people talking about this move. I'm sorry though if i made it this way but rest assured IT WAS NOT MY INTENTION TO SCARE MY MANAGERS.

The SUN Cellular, Broadband, Landline CRAPPY SERVICE!!!

 I am so pissed off and all fed up with the service im getting right now. My wireless internet connection is driving me nuts and i can't but want to scream out loud co'z everbody doesn't deserve this. I feel like i want to throw the USB and the SIM card of my broadband connection. And guess what? It's SUN's wireless Broadband connection. 

And not only that. There SUN Cellular services are also a bunch of crap. I got no signal inside my pad which is way to far from what they are advertising. Thinking that i am in the heart of Manila, their poor signal has been a problem to me. Thus, i broke the sim and bought another GLOBE SIM CARD and i got now 2 GLOBE numbers coz they never let me down.

 I pay P799 every month for an unlimited broadband service. But crap! Their 3 mbs package is more like a 1kb for the last 3 months now. I never have problems with the service before. I even boasted it to my friends but all i got now are bunch of hate and regrets why i picked up this services. I should have picked out other providers and a DSL line which is reasonable enough to use. DAMMIT!

I am done talking with their service representatives. Their  technicians are hard to reach. Everytime i dial their hotline, it makes me hot that i wanna throw my phone and scream for the crappy service. You are given a lot of options but at the end you will end up wasting your time and effort and money co'z a voice prompt will just tell you that all representatives are engage in a call. NO wonder why i cant get through. They have been bombarded with calls from unsatisfied customers. SHIT!

One thing that could always remind me as well with their customer service is when i applied for a landline. When i called the representative and ask about their packages, all that she can gave me are mere information that i am reading on their site. SHIT! She has the guts to tell me all of those packages! So then why opened up their website?

 I applied for a landline online with them and knowing all the requirements posted on the site ( i got the requirements needed). I submitted it and waited for an auto-reply from them. I opened the email and read their acknowledgement of my application. They are asking for more requirements thus i furnish some copies, scanned it and attach it on the email and sent it to them.

I receive a reply from them after 4 days asking me to provide them a proof of billing. WHAT? how many proof of billing do they need? I already sent all the things they need including th proof of billing, THE LATEST PROOF OF BILLING was the one i provided. 

I emailed back and told whoever from them, telling that I AM CANCELLING MY APPLICATION co'z it just prove that my application will just go nowhere. 

THATS WHAT I GOT FROM SUN COMPANY!! A company who are too good to be true. A company who run a lot  of lies with their services. I am waiting for my final bill and is now planning to change provider. SUN is nothing but promises that are always to good to be true.

If you think you are getting a satisfactory service from them, i respect that. I just want to share my unlucky endeavour with The SUN Company. Especially for the broadband service, i only got good services for the first 3 months and the rest ws a tremendous history. 

Now i don't believe that everything can be dealt with uner the SUN. BAck off you crap!!!

akala niyo lang yan.. pero may KAHIHIYAN din ako.

May mga bagay na nakakatuwa, nakakakatawa at pampalipas ng pagod after the days work. May mga bagay na dapat nilalagay sa tamang lugar at may mga lugar na dapat nating pag-isipan munang maigi ang gagawin bago bago natin gawin. May mga bagay na dapat isaalang alang muna ang kalalabasan bago ipamulat sa iba ang gusto mong mangyari.

This has just been one of those humiliating days in my life. Di ko man pinaramdam at di ko man pinakita sa karamihan pero and araw na ito ay isa sa mga kinasusuklaman kong araw sa tanang buhay ko. Sino lang ba naman ako? Isang hamak na indibidwal sa mundong ito. Isang taong walang hinangad kundi ang magpakasaya at mabuhay ng alam kong tama ako.

Living a life has always been a big deal for me co’z I always wanted to please everybody kahit alam kong minsan I’m throwing words below the belt or harsh word na hindi dapat. But that’s how everybody lives. May kanya kanyang diskarte sa buhay. Makasalanan din ako but the mere fact na alam ko ang limitations ko, I STICK WITH IT!

Isa lang ang alam ko sa buhay at habang nabubuhay ako hindi ko kakalimutan ang pinaninindigan kong paniniwala. Hindi ako pinanganak para kantiyawan, ipahiya, pagtawanan, apakan ang pagkatao, utusan at lumaban ng patas sa mga taong gagawa sa akin ng ito. 

Kung sa tingin MO katawa-tawa ako, oo alam ko yun. Kung sa tingin mo mapapatawa kita, kaya ko yun. At kung sa tingin mo alipin mo ako, ISIPIN mo muna paano ka naging alipin ng iba. Dahil ang bawat gagawin mo sa akin alam kong nagawa na ng iba sayo co’z tulad ko pathetic ka. Your pathetic co’z you are just trying to revenge from the humiliation you you get nung ginawa ng iba to sa iyo. Kaya nga sabi, kung sino ang biktima siya pa ang pinagpapala.

Sa araw na ito, hindi ko makalimutan ang ipahiya ako sa karamihan, ang utusan ako at pagtawanan at ang pagiging tahimik ko at pagkimkim ng sakit na dulot ng kahihiyang dulot ng araw na ito. Needless if you are my friend or not, needless if we are close or not, needless if you know your limitations or not, the truth remains the same, NANGYARI NA ANG LAHAT. Kumbaga, sadsad na sadsad na ako sa putik sa kahihiyan pero mas pinili ko pa rin ang di magsalita at makitawa dahil alam ko ang salitang “PAKIKISAMA”.

Sa lugar kung saan lahat ng tao ay nagkakaisa, masaya, nagtutulungan it always follow na everything is okay between these people. Kahit magmurahan pa kayo, kahit magbastusan pa kayo o kahit magsigawan pa kayo basta’t alam niyo na ang lahat ay hanggang salita lamang, ang mga nakita at narinig ay mananatiling sa loob lamang, ang lahat ay walang problema. Ganyan ang paligid na kinaroroonan ko ngayon. Ngunit, tila sa isang ihip ng hangin, binago nito ang pananaw ko sa salitang PAKIKISAMA. Mas lalong nag kainteres ako na alamin kung ano nga ba ang kahulugan nito dahil sa araw din lang na ito hindi ko naramdaman ang pakikisama at paglagay ng limitasyon.

Nauutusan ako. Napapakiusapan. Hindi ako madamot para di ko ipagyabang ang pagiging mabait ko. Hindi ko nililimitahan ang mga taong nais huingi ng tulong at lalong handa akong tumulong pag kailangan mo ako. Isa lang ang ayaw ko sa gagawin mo, PAG PINAHIYA MO AKO!

Kung papipiliin ka mas gusto mo pang magtahi ka na lang ng cross stitch sa corner ng bahay mo kesa samahan ang asong ipasyal sa kalsada na hindi naman sayo at sa isang kapitbahay mo lang. Mas pipiliin mo pang tumahimik ka na lang kesa magsalita at di ka naman napapakinggan. Mas pipiliin mo pang samahan ang isang bagong kaibigan kesa isang imbitasyon ng dating kaibigan dahil alam mong wala ka naming silbi dun.

Kung ikaw nasa kalagayan ko (oo ikaw!), anong magiging reaksiyon mo sa ginawa mo sa akin? Tatawa? Makikitawa? Magpapatawa? Ayaw mo nun di ba? Saang parte ng isip mo kaya nakuha ang ideyang GAGUHIN ako ng ganun na lang? Gaano ba kalaki ang utak mo para manglamang sa isang katulad ko? Sino ka ba? Kilala ba kita? Kilala mo ba ako? Hindi di ba?

Kung sa tingin mo napatawa mo ang karamihan, nagtagumpay ka sa adhikain mong magpatawa. Ngunit kung nag isip ka ng tama at nakiusap ng tama, may tao kayang masasaktan at mag-aalburuto ang kalooban?

I am not the type of person na akala mo makukuha mo ng ganun-ganun na lang. Kung tutuusin, sa inasal mong yun, mas edukado pa pala ako sayo. Utang na loob, kilalanin mo muna ang mga nakakasalamuha mo sa bawat araw dahil hindi lahat ng nakikita mong mukhang tanga ay tanga. Hindi lahat ng nakikita mong mukhang gago ay gago. At lalong hindi lahat ng nakikilala mo ay makikilala mo ng mabuti.

It was a pretty tough day to decide pero siguro nga BLESSING in DISGUISE. At least I have the reason for all my decisions.

Kung sino man ang mga natamaan sa prosang ito, pasensiya na. Alam ko masasaktan din kayo pag sa inyo nangyari iyon pero gusto ko lang iparating sa inyo, alam natin kung ano ang limitasyon natin. Sa loob ng playground natin tayo tayo lang ang naglalaro, tayo tayo ang nagmumurahan, tayo tayo ang nagbabastusan pero sa loob ng playground natin tayo lang ang nandun at walang sinuman ang makakaapak dun kaya masaya tayo. Sana isipin natin ang playground natin ay ATIN. Kung may makikilaro man, wag nating hayaan ipahiya ang kalaro natin dahil at the end of the day, sila pa rin makakalaro natin na sinaktan natin para makipaglaro sa mga bagong kaibigan.

My Being Second Father (Kenette Clyde Christening)

 His Name is Kenette Clyde Fernandez, a month old baby of my friends, Leo and Cathy Fernandez. He is the second child of my married couple friends who live 3 houses away from us. A sort of neighbor. 

This Kenette was welcomed to the Christian world on November 14, 2010 at the St. Francis of Assissi Parish Church in Mandaluyong where in there was a mass Christening done. 

As is second father (Godfather, Ninong in our language) it is my great responsibility to look after this child while he grow up and teach him the right ways of being a Christian man. It is my duty as well to be one of the few people that he can talk with in the near future and he can treat me a father and me treating him as my own son. 

That is how a godfather should be. Kenette is not just my first godson. I also have god daughters and god sons before. 

What's rewarding about being a godfather is that you are treating yourself as a family man too. Despite that biologically they are not your daughter or son, they are a part of you now. They are like someone in your bloodline that you need to consider as a special person from the day you solemnly swear to God to be his second father until the last breath. 

I came to realize that i have been blessed for having this children as 

my second sons and daughters. I felt like God has given me gifts and angels  to look at as we grow old. 

I feel like there are special connections soon between me and my grandchildren. I love that idea. 

While Kenette is still young, I have my promise to stand as nothing different to him and his family. I will always be his Ninong Brix and I will be there for him whenever he needs my support. Thats how a parent should do with their children. Thats a repsonsibility you 

 should take as you swear to be their godfather. 

As the priest has told, being such is not jsut an easy task or simpy giving gifts on Christmas and Birthdays or just a mere kiss on the hand whenever they saw you. Its mroe than that. 

The Filipino way of being a godfather is far more solemn for me and I always take it seriously. 

Manny Pacquiao: A True Filipino Pride in His Field

When the bell rings, the crowd goes wild. And, while the crowd goes wild, the battle begins between the Philippines and whoever will be in front of a filipino in a ring. A ring? Definitely i am talking about a BOXING RING. And, one name would always be on top when we talk about it. Not just Mohammad Ali or ay boxing legend but I'm talking about Manny Pacquiao.

I would say that he has been making a great history in boxing worldwide. Every year when his fight is on stage, everybody is expecting for a surprise. And yes the world was surprise for this man from General Santos City, Philippines. 

 

No wonder why he could not make it this far. He has been so dedicated with his own field. 

Manny or Pacman as what everybody call him, has been a true Filipino pride. Earlier on his career, everybody knows that he could make it this far. The Filipinos have been in one with him in reaching his goal of getting those boxing belts. Every Filipino has been his fan. And, every Filipino is proud of him. 

After all, he bears the race of the pearl of the orients, the Filipinos. A blood of a true fighter runs over his veins and he is that of our national heroes who fought for the country. He is one symbol of strength, one symbol of a fighter and one symbol of a great Malay race.

It is overwhelming everytime the world hears a Filipino wins a race. Heart-warming to hear them scream his name with praise knowing that he is a Filipino. And it is always fantastic to hear praises intended for the whole Filipino nation and that what makes Manny one Filipino's pride on his field. 

Not despising the other Filipinos who has dominated the international scene but i guess he is just one example that Filipinos should not be discriminated and be talked about negatively. We never meant to be ridiculed in this world thus we are always doing are best to prove to the whole world that we are not a bunch of third world people who cannot dominate in some fields. We are born fighters. We never quit and we never are losers. Manny has jsut prove it.

This is his 8th straight world title. Eight straight wins from known boxing fighters. Some of them ended the whole match and yet some ended on earlier rounds. I wonder what is in Manny's punch that everybody can't stand him at the end. I know they have fought everything and have gave everything they have and it always has MANNY "PACMAN" PACQUIAO standing at the end of rounds. 

MANNY PACQUIAO, we salute you for another victory. Another history for the Filipino race and another pride you brought to our country, THE PHILIPPINES. 

Our prayers have been helping you to win our race and we will continue praying for your next endeavours.  CONGRATS to the 8th world title.

Kahit Di Mo Pansin

 Marami man ang nagsabing baduy ang kantang to pero dati pa TAGOS na TAGOS sa puso ko to. Ewan, nakakarelate ako sa song na to. Kasi di ba pag nagmahal ka, minsan ikaw lang ang nagmamahal pero yung mahal mo amy iabng mahal tapos magpapakamartyr ka na lang dahil lagi mong iniisip kaligayahan mo. Kahit umabot na sa puntong ipilit mo ang sarili sa katotohanang hindi pwedeng mangyari, at kahit super sakit na ang lahat di ka pa rin sumusuko. Manhid na manhid na ang puso mo sa salitang "maghanap ka na lang ng iba"/

Aminin na nating lahat tayo dumaan sa stage na to pero wala pa akong nakitang pursigido na nabiyayaan talaga. Kasi mahirap isiping ikaw lang ang nagmahal at sa balang araw biglang mahuhulog din ang loob sa yo ng taong gusto mo. Ano ka, second choice lang? Ang pangit.

Laging may tanong sa isip ko
Kung ako ay bagay ba sa'yo
Bakit gano'n lagi kang ala-ala ko

Nalalaman ko na di ako
Ang tinitibok ng puso mo
Ngunit umaasa na mapapansin mo

Kahit di mo pansin maghihintay sa'yo
Kahit mayr'ong iba ngayon sa puso mo
Laging naririto ako at patuloy na magmamahal
Ganyan ang damdamin para sa'yo

Di mo man kita sa kilos ko
Pagtingin na para lang sa'yo
Kailan mo ba madarama sa puso mo

Alam kong siya'y higit sa tulad ko
Kaya't sa kanya ang damdamin mo
Ngunit bakit ikaw ang laging hanap ko

Kahit di mo pansin maghihintay sa'yo
Kahit mayr'ong iba ngayon sa puso mo
Laging naririto ako at patuloy na magmamahal
Ganyan ang damdamin para sa'yo

Sana'y malaman mo
Walang iba na iibigin ang puso kong ito

Kahit di mo pansin maghihintay sa'yo
Kahit mayr'ong iba ngayon sa puso mo
Laging naririto ako at patuloy na magmamahal
Ganyan ang damdamin para sa'yo

Laging naririto ako at patuloy na magmamahal
Ganyan ang damdamin para sa'yo...

Hay naku. Kung pipiliin mong magpakamartyr, sana isipin mo muna ang bukas. Hindi lahat ng gusto natin sa mundong ito ay nakukuha natin kahit pa pagluksaan natin ito ng maraming gabi o pag isipan ng maraming taon. ANg pag-ibig kasi, sa katotohan, ay SELFISH. 

The Christmas Feeling

Christmas is in the air. The cold touch of the wind is the aroma and sign that Christmas is soon to come. As i walked in every corner of the street, each window is showing a sign of this grewat celebration. Those gaily decorated houses, those dressed up Christmas trees and those blinking christmas lights. What a nice thing to see as December is fast approaching. 

It has been 3 years now when we haven't put on some decorations thus this year, we are prepared to celebrate christmas. We have put on some lights outside hanging on the wall, and we dressed up our Christmas tree as seen in the left. 

Whats meaningful about this tree is me and my Bhe put up the decorations together until finishing it with the star on top and the lights. This is our first time to make the Christmas tree and its so memorable co'z it can only happen once in a year. 

As i am watching this Christmas symbol, it came to my realization that it has been years now when i really have got no chance to celebrate it properly due to my work. But it will not happen again this year. Co'z everythings planned and I got to celebrate it with my family. 

For some people, Christmas might not be of that important. It is just a yearly season and needs not to be looked out too. For some others, this time of the year is the best part as possibilities can happen. Family who were away from their own will be seeing each other and celebrating. And, i belong to that population. 

I have been working during the Christmas eve fot the past 3 years. While others are with their family and spending time happily, I am at the office going on with my work. 

It has been sad for the last 3 Christmas. I am not used to just hearing my family's voice over the phone. Its just so pathetic and I am pathetic. 

I will not be bale to feel that way again this Christmas co'z everything is set and everything will go according to my plan and nobody can stop me. 

All "New" for this month

Cool month. I got brand news,

Brand new scent for November and December . I happen to drop by Bench and tried to smell their scents. I got 2 choices but i ended picking PIOLO PASCUAL Pure Passion. BVULGARI has been good for Spetember and October and maybe soon i will pick it again.

New QWERTY Phone Nokia E5. This is my first QWERTY phone and i have a total of 4 functioning mobile phones.

- Nokia 3310

- another Nokia ( i dont know what series and number)

- Samsung E590 of which i so love the camera and its being handy and portability.

-Nokia E5

We've got a newly gaily decorated Christmas tree to put some Christmas spirit in the house. Its a gold and silver themed Christmas tree.

I got a new haircut from NEWSBARBERS in SM Hypermart. I was planning to put some color in my hair but only to find out that they dont have my favorite hair color, Burgundy or Dark Auburn.  And, i would always love their after-hair cut free massage. Scalp massage is really cool.

Hmm.. Great things to start the month.

Ngayong Pasko, Magniningning ang Pilipino

I have grown up with how FIlipinos celebrate Christmas and how much time they spent to celebrate it with its true essence. Giving and sharing has always been the theme for every Filipino during Christmas. I have grown up with this tradition and im proud to say that Filipinos are really unique.

When i watch this ABS-CBN christmas station ID, I'm not shy to say but i cried. It reminded me of my family and how we use to celebrate Christmas. I really cried.

Ngayong Pasko, Magniningning ang Pilipino (This Christmas, the Filipinos will Shine (or will stood out)

When it comes to production and creative outputs, I would always love ABS-CBN. They can always touch people's lives.

I'm pretty hoping for Christmas to come and i can celebrate it with my family.

Hesitations

At exactly 18 days from now, my 1st anniversary will commence (as a aprt of my team in the office). I rememdered,  I landed on this job when someone took me as his back up and then history follows. 

I meet new friends, new smoke-buddies and a new environment after a year of taking calls. Now, my task is more than just "Thank you for calling...(then goes the openeing spiel)" but more on Service level, AHT, Occupancy, DVR, staffing, ACW and the likes. I can't even imagine why i came to this job.  With no perfect training and less things i knew of being in RTR, I travelled this new journey with the help of my colleagues. Blessed by good thinking, i easily grasp those and applied it to what my work should be. Alas! Being an RTR has one great experience that i could not forget in this BPO world. 

My being one year though (in the next 18 days) in RTR is now tested with chaotic situations that me, myself can say a great factor why i need to move on. This turmoil needs to be forgotten but as days pass, its just getting worst and worst. People come and go. People leaving some other friends behind and people quitting the business of dealing with numbers. NAY! what an exhaustion so it seems. 

As i foretold on my previous blogs, i did have an interview with the other company. ITs the same world where im wandering at. Its still a BPO. But this new journey im trying to take is hindering me from moving on. 

Despite of this opportunity, there is something pulling me to be back on my senses? Who do i consider leaving this company? I am about to turn 3 years by next March. And, why so sudden?

First, the scene i am seeing in our department is trying to give me some negative aura that i should leave. My closest friends have done their plans. Some of them are now in some other else's playground. Some are planning to take a leap and some are bethroted with their task and will stay. Its as simple as goodbye and hello. Goodbye to the company, hello to the new one. Goodbye to my colleagues, hello new peers. 

Second, I might need to breath new air. I might need to face new people and i might need to mingle with new acquaintances. I am not soaked up though with what my company is giving me but change is always a better way to move on. 

Lastly, I am to widen everything that i know. 

BUt i can't still do it today. Not for now that everything is making me happy while i am at work. Quitting has never come to me and will never come to me unless i say so and utter those words. 

I just so love my people. I just so love my job but its just that there are reasons why I am torn to choose between what and what or which is which and who are who. 

(sighs!)

VXI Interview, Exam, Bob Ong

So this has been a busy day for me. I woke up around 1AM to do my Frontierville visit and ended at around 6AM. I am suppose to ahve an interview with VXI by 8AM thus the reason why i am awake to early. I dont have any idea on how to get to the office of VXI co'z I have never wandered Quezon City yet. 

I decided to take a cab rather than commuting through jeepneys and buses or i will be lost in this little metro. I told Manong Driver to drive me to Waltermart in  Muñoz- North Edsa as this is what the VXI-HR instructed me and thankfully Manong Driver knew the place.

 This is the visitors/Applicant's ID given to me by Manong Guard who asked me to log my name on their visitor's list. I was late actually and i logged the paper arriving at 8:08 AM. Hmmm.. interesting co'z i saw one of my colleagues who was their too. (guess who?!)

Shoots! Good thing i passed the initial interview thus the HR woman who assist and interviewed me take me to the exam room. 

WHAT!?!? Excel exam?!?! 

I don't have any idea how to compute those numbers in front of me. (I only know the basic operations in Excel). And what made me faint is PIVOTING! Never in my entire life did I encounter such a surprise exam. I am thinking of what to do but since i was already there, I got to continue the exam My colleague who happened to sit opposite to me give me an idea on how to solve it. Atleast, i have some questions answered. I stayed more than an hour infront of the DELL PC watching the grids and data on the EXCEL. I got to try all my luck to come up with an answer. Well, I did answer some but I am not sure if everything was right. Little did I know that some are correct but most of it needs another way as what the HR-Woman told me. Thanks God! the exam is over. 

I waited a couple of minutes for the HR-Woman as thats what she told me. Anyways, i love their place. hmmmm.. 

After about 5 minutes, here comes the HR-Woman bringing some yellow papers which is an Appointment Slip. I will be back on Friday for the Final Interview at again 8AM and i know that would be something like to think about coz by then i will be out from my shift at 5Am and I don't know if i can make on time. I hope I will not be sleeping when i get home. 

Anyways, its somewhat like taking my new journey after everything that is happening in the office. Who knows this is a brand new luck. 

On my way home, I rode a bus up to Robinsons Galleria and again NATIONAL BOOKSTORE was waiting for me and inviting me to come in. I'm just a human and can be tempted sometimes. 

I went inside the store and off to the second floor to get a brand new copye of Bob Ongs, Ang Paboritong Libro ni Hudas coz i just found out that the first copy I bought is nowhere. THus, Bob Ong Books is really complete. 

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at 8pm, i got work and i am not able to get sleep coz my body is not telling me to sleep thus i am looking for a way to get a nap.

ZzZzZzZZZZZzZZZZzzzzzzzzz...

^_^

My FrontierVille Homestead

Eversince i played this game in Facebook, it has been my fave game and has spent much of my time working on my homestead (in Frontierville). Its always a daily routing to feed the animals, harvest he fruits and crops, visit my neighbors, checking for gifts. doing quests and so on and so forth. Im a certified Frontierville addict. I just want to sahre my current homestead. I worked 4 hours today to fix it and rearrange everything. 

People might think it so childish for my age to play this kind of game. BUt, i would like to tell you that this has been my stress reliever daily. Whenever im playing it, i kind of forget th problems. Im to focused on the game that i sometimes feel that i am there inside and working while somebody is clicking me to do a task. 


Its one role playing game that i dont dare get the hang of. I started loving this game and imagining that it is me making my own home, my own life in the game. 


I love Frontierville

A Very Touching Love Story

Dalawang magkasintahan ang nangakong hanggang kamatayan ang pagsasama nila. Subalit alam nilang maaring may magbago pa sa mga plano nila ngunit minabuti pa din nilang panahon na lang ang magtakda kung magiging sila nga ba o hindi.

Kagagaling lang sa isang linggong bakasyon ni Mia kasama ang pamilya niya habang si Marco nama’y naging busy sa trabaho at mas piniling magtrabahao habang ang nobya niya’y kasama ang pamilya nag eenjoy. Nami-miss niya si Mia kaya naman nang malanag niyang nakauwi na ito at katatawag lang dahil gustong makipagkita, laking tuwa ang kanyang nadarama. Ang katuwaang iyon ay napalitan din ng biglang katahimikan dahil sinabihan siya na Mia na may sasabihin itong importanteng bagay.

Naguguluhan man, pumunta si Marco sa tagpuan nila. Alas 7:00 ng gabi ng tingnan niya ang kanyang relo. Naaalala niya dito niya unang nakilala si Mia, sa coffee house na ito kung saan dati niyang pinapasukan bilang barista, dalawang taon na ang nakalipas. Ngayon ay mas pinili niyang magtrabaho sa coffee house na pinamana sa kanya ng kanyang yumaong ama.

Tiningnan niya uli ang kanyang relo. Alas 7:15 na at may nakikita siyang paparating na taxi at huminto sa tapat ng coffee house. Mula dito. Nakita niyang lumabas sa pinto ang kanyang nobyang si Mia. Naka kulay itim ito na bestida na hapit na hapit sa kanya at kita ng hubog ng katawan nito. Sa isip na, “ang seksi talaga ng magiging Misis ko”.

Oo. Napagplanuhan niya ng yayain ito na magpakasal sa gabing ito. Handa na siya at ayaw na niya itong pakawalan at gusto na niya itong makasama habang buhay.

Sinalubong niya ng ngiti ang dalaga at nang makalapit na ito ay dinampian niya ng halik sa labi. Napansin niyang malungkot ito kaya tinanong niya ito.

“May problema ba , Mahal?”  tanong niya.

Umiling lang ito at nagpakawala ng isang ngiti. Ngiting di mo maintindihan kung may dinadamdam ito o may iniisip na malalim. Hindi ito naging lingid kay Marco kaya minabutin niyang kausapin uli.

“Mahal, alam ko may problema ka. Maari mo naming sabihin sa akin.” Aniya.

“Marco, mahal na mahal kita. Ayokong mawalay sayo. Ikaw lang ang minahal ko ng totoo na kahit hanggang kamatayan ay mamahalin ko.” At sabay tumulo ang mga luha sa mga mata nito. Hindi ito makatinging ng diretso kay Marco.

Dahil sa nakita, tumayo si Marco at lumapit dito. Mula sa likod ay niyakap niya ito ng buong higpit at ng buong pagmamahal. Hindi niya alam anng ibig sabihin ng kanyang kasintahan kaya minabuti niyang pakalamahin muna ito.

Nang medyo naibsan na ang lungkot ng dalaga, ay saka bumalik sa upuan niya si Marco. Kinuha niya ang kamay ng kasintahan at hinawakan niya ito ng buong higpit ng ng buong pagmamahal. Tiningnan niya ang mala-anghel nitong mukha.

’Kahit anong mangyari, ikaw lang ang aking pakamamahalin magpakailanman. Hindi ko hahayaan ang sinuman na nagbabalak na hahadlang sa atin. Ikaw lang ang buhay ko at ikaw lang ang nasa puso ko.” Ang sabi niya dito.

Dahil sa narinig, biglang may tumulong mga luha sa mata ng dalaga.

“Mahal, wag ka ng umiyak. Andito ako. Kung may problema ka pwede mo naming sabihin sa akin. Makikinig ako.” Pagpapakalma pa niya dito.

Hindi pa rin natinag sa pagkakaiyak ang babae bagkus mas lalaong nakikita dito ang kalungkutan at bumabalot dito ang misteryo na ni minsan ay di pa nakita ni Marco sa kasintahan.

Sa isiping dahil baka napagod lang ito dahil sa biyahe, minabuti niyang ayain na itong umuwi para makapagpahinga.

Habang binabaybay nila ang kahabaan ng EDSA, hawak pa rin niya ang kamay ng babae at nang mapagtantong may nakalimutan siyang gawin, binitawan niya muna ito at kinapa ang isang maliit na kahetang kanina pa nagpupumiglas sa bulsa ng amerikana niya.

Ibinigay niya ang kulay pulang kaheta sa babae.

“Ayoko sanang samantalahin ito pero ito ang napagpalanuhan kong gawin sa araw na ito.”.

INihinto niya muna ang sasakyan upang makakuha ng tamanag lakas bago sabihin ang nasa puso at isip niya. Nagpakawala ng malalim na buntong-hininga.

“Mia Arestorenas, can you be my wife?” mata sa mata niyang kinausap ang dalaga pero naguguluhan pa din siya dahil imbes na matuwa ito ay mas lalong tumulo ang mga luha sa mga mata nito.

“Mia, whats the problem?” niyakap niya ito ng mahigpit upang pakalmahin. Nang mapansing pwede n aitong makausap, bumitiw siya sa pagkakayakap at binalingan uli ang babae.

“May gusto ka bang sabihin? May nais ka bang malaman ko? Tell me Mia? Please…”

“Marco, ayokong saktan kita kasi mas nasasaktan ako. Basta isipin mo lagi, ikaw lang ang minahal ko at ikaw lang ang mamahalin ko kahit hanggang kamatayan.Pero hindi ko matatanggap ang inaalok mo sa akin. Masasaktan ka lang pag malaman mo ang katotohanan.”

Tiningnan niya lang ang nobya at sa di niya maipaliwanag na dahilan, hinalikan niya ito at niyakap ng mahigpit. Niyakap niya ito na tila ba ayaw na niyang pakawalan. Naguguluhan man siya sa mga reaksiyon ng kasintahan pero kailangan niyang intindihin ito. At tumulo ang luha sa kanyang mga mata.

Hindi na siya nagtanong at minabuti niyang ipagmaneho na lang ito hanggang sa bahay nila.

Sa daan, ang katahimikan ay binasag niya sa pamamagitan ng pag bukas ng FM station sa radio.

“Now for the breaking news. Natagpuan na ang bangkay ng pamilyang nadisgrasya ang sinasakyang van sa may kahabaan ng McKinley Road. Napag-alamang isang pamilya ang lulan nito na magbabakasyon sana sa Baguio ng isang linggo. Tinatayang 7 araw bago nakita ang mga bangkay ng mag-anak at nakilala itong ang pamilya Arestorenas…

Hindi makapaniwala si Marco sa narinig. Nilingon niya si Mia at tumingin ito sa kanya na puno ng lunkgot sa mata. Luhaan ito at nagsalita.

“Patawarin mo ako Marco. Kaya hindi ko matanggap ang alok mo. Mahal na mahal na mahal kita. Ikaw lang ang nakapagpaligaya sa akin ng ganito at ayokong makita kang nasasaktan.”

At niyakap siya nito ng mahigpit. Saka niya naintindihan ang lahat. 

Burikso 

11/02/2010

2:30PM