A song without a tune and Rhyme (January 3 4:19 AM)

For whatever it takes
Im ready to let this feeling show
No matter how i let you see
You are so blind to see the best in me

For whatever i know
I can only be someone your eyes wont see
Someone who you never can turn to
But i will be waiting when you call on me

Time and i will let you go
BUt now, all i can hope is jsut to be with you
coz when you're near
the colors of the world sinks to my soul
and your beauty shines above all

It would take time
for you to feel that i am here today
my doors are always open everytime i see you
passing by

Coz you are the apple of my eye
Believing that someday you'll be mine
YOu maybe jsut an inch away
but you are world apart from me

The Worst Case Scenario

What if things end unexpectedly? 

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Now I'm thinking about worst case scenarios.

First, how many times did you pray that things would just end as easy as turning off the TV after watching a great show? Did you ever feel like you wanna come out from suppression? Suppressing your feelings, suppressing your life. We all know that there are a lot of things that we can do and just by doing it alone we survive. We never did ask for someone to help us with our journey though. We always end up questioning ourselves how would we turn, how would we deal, how would we accept and how would we repent. Such things are just the manifestation of you living in this vast environment. If you are not thinking about it then start asking yourself what is your worth in this world. 

A lot of times, my mind has been traveling in a lot of possibilities and impossibilities. My thoughts were sometimes vague that people don't seem to understand me. And most of the times, I pitied myself from sitting alone in a dark room trying to imagine and fathom the vagueness of things around me. Yeah those were the best of times for me. Knowing what needs to be seen and done, creating my own set of expectation. That's how I realize my worth. 

The worst case scenario, I ALWAYS END UP DEFEATED BY MYSELF.

Second, did you ever wonder how great the world is? People come and go. Did you ever notice that day by day people are just doing the same routine? Those are the things that we sometimes miss. Our eyes are just watching the vast world but not looking the realms of it. 

They say that the world is full of surprises and that we are the key to open a door for a surprise of our life. I wonder how it would be dealt with. Imagine someone asking for a surprise and as he opens the door, plague covered him. That is not a good surprise. That is what you call reality in this world. 

People are just to blind to see that surprises has two faces, bad and good, negative and positive, pro and con. Everybody knows the general rule: "We live with consequences and choices".

As you open your eyes to a new day, you are not even sure what would happen this day. Your thoughts are blank. You know the reason why when you just woke up and your mind is not working immediately? Its because while we are in a deep slumber, the world gives us the opposite of sometimes what we call reality. These premonitions will inculcate in your mind thus bringing it up until your REM ends its course. Surprise! A new vague day. 

The worst case scenario, I AM DEFEATED BY THE FACT THAT I LIVE IN A DARK AND LIGHT WORLD. 

And lastly, who are you?

The worst case scenario, I STILL DON'T KNOW WHO I AM UNTIL NOW.

Don't Go Breaking My Heart

Another love poem of pain and dreaming that i compose this day 12/09/2010 after hearing someone telling me her story of painful love and dreaming.

on Longingness..Nice piece

Falling IN Love with a wrong person

For you have given me the power to smile
Reminds me that happiness is felt inside
And gives me the best of the day that it brings
No picture of tears and all joyful awakenings
Clinging to my heart are still hopes and some dreams
In my mind your face and your angelic schemes
Soaring my thoughts, believing that its real

Remembering the first chapter when my eyes saw yours
Over hedges of people, those eyes i adore
Not empty my visions, or deliver misjudgement
Upon those sights, i mirror my excitement
Love? no! just maybe some admirations
False alarm and, teenage infatuations
On this diverse world full of surreal.

Let me just admire you for whatever it means
And give me the time to look at you not seen
Give me this moment and let me live my way
All dreams might not come true, don't worry I'm okay
Say it not because pity is what you feel
Curse me maybe and let you be in real.
Alive I will pursue this hideous peril.

(Burikso 7:33AM October 3, 2010)

Quoting "I dont know"

"Be TRUE"

"Be Yourself"

"Express who you are"

"Be not what you are not"

Just some phrases that says about being who you are. Everybody wants to be listened. Everybody wants to be seen. Everybody wants a part of this world. Everybody wants to be on top. That's how everybody is thinking about themselves.

I just read a piece of info from a news paper and its somewhat like asking everybody to be true. Whatever the name of the newspapaer or the author, i dont know. But, it really dig me down to think that YES! everybody is acting weird. Everybody are trying to make a scene. Everybody is wearing a mask. WHY?

Its not about being seen and heard. Its about your individuality. Its about your talent, the greatest talent that you can share. It's about passion to do what you want to do and its about you. The real you who will never think about being this and that skipping the real tough journeys to be on that spot. 

Why do I always whine for people killing themselves just to be a part of a group? Or individuals who are trying to fit in a community which he does not belong? Or just a simple man who is trying to seek for a better position in a wrong way? Why do i always see this things negative? Co'z I have been there, done that and i end up unvictorious until i found the right way to be seen and heard. JUst my own way with no mask and no lies. Being myself. 

Pity for those who seek for the spot. Once you get there, its more pressure to push especially if you have still the plans of stepping another ladder just to be on top of everybody. 

Listen to this. I have a friend whom is so ambitious to be on top of the class. He studied, memorize everything just to please everybody and face them with confidence that he would pass the scholastic run. HE was almost there but everybody just found out that aside from memorizing and studying, he has got small pieces of paper of his pockets, CHEATS for his exams. Do you think he would be able to still please everybody after all? Its a crime to cheat and no one loves to be called as a cheater coz it just mean you committed a crime. 

Same as one of my friend. To fit in a group, he neglected his family. He neglected their status. He played a rich kid. IN short, he is wearing a mask. WEll, some of his friends are really were born with gold spoon on their mouths. Time flies, his friends asked him to party on his place in which he cannot do co'z he knows he has got no place for a party. ONe fine afternoon, he received a surprise visit from his friends and guess what? THEY are all surprised to see him working on with some laundry. Well, surprises can always mean a thing. HE played as the leader of that group but he is nowhere in the group now. He is now working in a department store as a Merchandiser (i don't know how to explain what a merchandiser is).

Well, i mean just being yourself, really, is one important thing we need to know about leaving and interacting with your fellow homo sapiens. Who knows, simple things will always have grand ending.

Poetic Side

The Trail of Love

[Burikso-San]

Precious and few are those memories we hold so dear

Bound are those times when we hold each other near

It’s a feeling of contentment

It’s a feeling of delight

When it’s precious and few but so warm and so true

With love in our eyes so pure without blue

That’s how we did it

We are lover’s though precious and few

Moments by moments we travel the road of love

The happiness of our hearts would fly above

Moments of laughter

Moments of joys and cheer

And those moments we have were paid so sincere

The dreams that we share so wild but so clear

It’s all so romantic

My heart would scream with no tears

Follow me through this wonderful trail of living

Just hold my hand together we’ll fly and dive and sing

With you beside me it’s no night

And touching you seem so up bright

Just sing with me with those melodies of love

And soar the sky, reach those farthest stars above

Its loving you, loving you

Have made this journey last.

Out of The Blue I was humming a melody and came up with this brief poem of love.

Corny ko.

August 26, 2010

Start 9:45 – End 10:28 (Manila Time)

Quoting Shakespeare

William Shakespeare

Sonnet XXIX.

When, in disgrace with fortune and men's eyes,
I all alone beweep my outcast state
And trouble deaf heaven with my bootless cries
And look upon myself and curse my fate,
Wishing me like to one more rich in hope,
Featured like him, like him with friends possess'd,
Desiring this man's art and that man's scope,
With what I most enjoy contented least;
Yet in these thoughts myself almost despising,
Haply I think on thee, and then my state,
Like to the lark at break of day arising
From sullen earth, sings hymns at heaven's gate;
For thy sweet love remember'd such wealth brings
That then I scorn to change my state with kings.

 I SAY: Shakespeare had been a great influence to me when I started to right my own poems secretly. I meet him when i was taking up English Literature in College though i have already heard and read about him during my earlier years. He has superb thoughts, rich vocabulary and wandering imaginations putting it on a story, a poem, a lyric, a play. Literature has been always connected to him coz he has got a lot to share and i wanna be like him.

The Sonnet above is actually telling us more about hardwork to gain riches, taking chances with life's stakes and perseverance to overcome certain hindrances. Though, ironically, contentment with what you have has been a part on the lyric too. Thats how Shakespeare plays with his words. Superb, ambiguous, huge and deep. 

What Thy Mouth Had Saith (unusual awakening)

Haunted by the harshness of my blah blah blahs
Awakening my thoughts, escaping from the realms
Of dreadful acts and deed
Of powered curse and blasphemy

Zipped.
Thou words are painful
Thou words are opener
Thou words are truthful

T'was the day of vagueness discovered,
of bizarre extremities
and truths rediscovered for self's mind
Oh! such a hideous proliferation of unworthy lines.

Knees are bowed, heads t'wards the horizon
Seemingly awkward to take a glance.
to take a step for a leap for the bond produced
with wandering thoughts of what the day would come.

Thyself in blame
Thyself had known
Thyself had grown
for this blissful awakening...

August 6, 2010 7:48AM