Selfishly Starting The Year

Funny how the day turned out to be. Its almost the 2nd day of the new year and when i got here in the office, acquaintances show affection, greetings on my birthday and a talk with my long lost friends had made me feel like its still worth living in this world.

I ended up asleep for the whole afternoon thus i never knew that this day is almost passing me by and i got to wait for anotehr 365 days before this special day comes. I am still happy though that i reached 30 on this life. I could never ask for more but good health and good physique for this year though i know there will be times that i am seeing myself alone. As i blogged, I will be on my own for this year and no one can hind me from doing things that i want to do.

I am thank ful for the warm virtual hug shown by one of my friends, Rachel Bray, and the quick conversation we shared. I missed her. She is one of my confidante when I am facing troubled times. I tried to hide in Facebook but she saw me and give me that warm hug. She heared me out that I was really thankful for having her in my circle of comrades.

Before this day end, a new chapter is opening and I would like to start it with the word SELFISHNESS: Chapter 1 for the year 2011. I have always been asking myself for many times how i have lived with people trying to rule my life so this time it is my great turn for selfish decisions.

the heck with new year...my last post for the worst year

We haven't even landed yet on the year but it seems this is a worst year for me. I know myself very well and yes the mirage of the late 2010 has been one reason why I would say this could be a worst year for me.

Looking back, 2010 has been one great sorrowful time for my family co'z this year marks a special date that we could never forget until the day we die. My father died on April 10, 2010 and in the same date is my mother's birthday thus a very special date we dare not forget.

This has been one year of chaotic relationships and I would like to change everything leaving myself the sole owner of my decisions. In the most simple word, SELFISHNESS!

Expect the worst top come in 2011. They said life starts at 30 and I choose to live it my way. No hesitations, no second thoughts, no families, no lovers, no friends can stop my decisions. I am me and will know what bad for me in 2011.  I would like to see myself dead before the year ends again.  Who cares?

I have been living a messed up life for almost all of the 3 decades that i exist in this world. Why not make it worst than worst?