What Good It Gets when You Get enough Sleep

TADA!!!!

Yeah! My physical looks would seem like I'm relieved after a very tremendous event that had happened 2 a week ago. Well, some say I have moved on but in reality, I really did not.

Thanks to some friends who shared times and lent me their ears while i was blabbering. My appreciation for those people who have considered me a big, important friend thus I am still here and ready to face another storm brough by life.

Or maybe the good night sleeps had given the reason to smile after all. Thanks to Mommy Jane!

The four corners of one of her rooms made me feel special and important thus my deepest gratitude for letting me in. My sincerest thanks to her for welcoming me and opening up her house and let me use one of those comforting rooms I've ever had. I got 8 hours straight sleep thus giving me enough energy to continue with what I was about to leave.

These good night sleeps made me feel like nothing ends if you really seek for help. That despite of the tragedies and chaotic situations, life is still there for you to face. You do not need to think about what's not to come or what's in store. You seek for it. You asked for it so you need to work on it to get an answer.

These consecutive good sleeps have made me realize my worth, my existence and now I can move on freely, think and wander my thoughts liberally and stand with my own liberty and freedom again.

I wish I have slept 8 hours daily before!

Choices and its consequences

If you are to pick a pink bag and you are a man, then basically people would have this questions protruding in their minds. Why pink? Why that color? Its unmanly!

If you are to pick a broadway show than watching soldier-themed movies, then your friends would start to ask you why. Why?

The answer is, its our choice! Its our forte and its what what we love.

A man would say, I chose the pink bag because its cute and I guess I don't care what people say. This is my identity or this is my faveorite color or I'm trying to make a trend.

Or, a man would say, I love music. I like music. I love performances and I love to be on that stage someday so im picking the broadway than the movie.

Everybody deserves choices for themselves. Needless of the negative consequences that it may bring, as long as you can carry on and stand on why you pick that choice, bring it!

Why do we need to listen to people when we know that what we are doing are simply the "just" for ourselves. We, too, need opinions from others but bringing something like "Dude, you would look gay in that pink thing" or "Did you forget that you are a man and man loves action movies?" are way below the line. Yes we need those criticisims and justifications but the truth remains the same. We rule our own lives.

I chose to leave because i want a greener pasture or I chose to stay because I love my colleagues and the crown I'm in, are some of the choices I opted to pick these days. The truth remains the same, I'm here! Staying in this very happy playground. I chose this because I can't find any other reason why I should leave in the first place. I don' have a place to go. I don't have a place to stay and I am so tired of always starting up anew.

Despite of these decisions, my friends differ in their ideology of why I am staying. Some said that its best to leave co'z of the sufficating task. Some others would beg me to take a rest and some others will just hold on to me and ask me to stay because this is the only place that I could call my own.

I love picking choices and facing consequences but still I would defer the decision to myself.

..on Moving Forward ( an unwise decision?)

I suppose to wear that happy smile on my face after being personally chosen by one of my Boss to be transferred to another department. Yes, a sort of flattery moment but then again, it came surprisingly, by-passing my existence. I deserve to know first though since it was me that needs to decide if I am willing or not. Who else would decide for myself but myself alone!

My idea of growth in the work place is based on the opportunities that would come knocking on my door. I always wanted to grow everyday when I am at work. I have always wanted to surpass those things that I can do and change it to a more challenging and complicated stuff, have my self untie those knots of difficulties and breath fresh air after coping with the new challenge. Yes! that's what I've always wanted. Growth, challenged and prosper in this world.

It all came as a surprise. Or should I say a joke that have slipped out from one of my Boss's tongue. When I was asked if I wanted to be transferred, I definitely said "NO!". I like my current environment. I like my crowd and I love working on this jungle of fun place. So I said "no". But honestly, I was thinking selfishly.

It came to me that I should have considered what's at stake. Promotion? Challenge? But why me? Im cenrtainly not the only one around and there are a lot to pick who can work better than me. There is this colleague of mine who is better than me (I swear he is!) who deserves a new environment. For goodness sake, lets say that staying in that four corners of the room for a year will really make you sick. This man needs to vacate his seat and sit more comfortable outside that zone. I would love him to take that part and have me stay in my current office.

The truth is....

I wanted this!

My Last Hurrah!

Well, it has been a pretty bad months previously, for me. Certain things have made my outcast plight but I guess things will change now. Now that my last hurrah has paved its way, I think I can move on smoothly.

Remembering those days will always hurt my pride and ego after bowing down to people whom I should not bow to. I still reign the kingdom and nobody can stand in front of me and I will never let my guard down now that I have been so pathetic for the last couple of days.

As they say, life sucks for good people, I can say it was and it will never be for me now that the filthy witch has took its broom out to nowhere, my dominion will now reign again.

I just simply kicked out someone from my house after considering its state of nowhere to go and nowhere to sleep. But too much really harms some other elses life, thus, my last hurrah was when the witch walk her way out of my kingdom.

Goodbye!

The Harry Potter Book Marathon

So goes my one week vacation (but including my restdays from works, it was a nine day straight out of the office). I spent much of my time at home trying to arrange and re-arrange the things in the living room but have been taking much time in sleeping.

I really did plan something on this vacation but there were things that have came along the way not allowing me to go on with my plan. Dammit though! I arrange this vacation for a special occasion, concerning my Father's death anniversary, since December of 2010. Gees! another of those broken plans.

Anyways, i find time as well to read those books on my shelf and was able to complete reading the whole 7 books of Harry Potter in just a month (March 10 to April 11, 2011). I have read the first 2 books before but i decided to read it again anf go on with the rest of the books in which I find it self-fulfilling that I was happy to finish it in a short period of time despite of me being busy at work sometimes.

What did i gain from that book?

I guess i can't say that i gained something from the book or learned something from it. The thing is, i didn't read it to look for a specific thing that I could apply to my life. All the stories were actually packed with adventure and it gives me a realization that there is a world existing in our imagination and all you need to do is just look at it on a different view such as reading this kind of stuff.

I salute J.K. Rowling though for the wonderful book she have shared. It is worth reading for me and it is worth imagining things like flying brooms, Quidditch and Horcruxes. I even wanted to have some Hocruxes so that I could atleast live 7 lives (which is impossible). Just an FYI, Horcruxes will be introduced on the last movie.

As i have heard, the last Harry Potter movie will be showing on July 2011 and im pretty excited to watch it.

Move On and Bye Bye

So here goes me. I missed a lot of things in FB due to smoe hectic schedule at work. Haven't done visiting my neighbors in CITYVILLE or even visited my town in FRONTIERVILLE. I was able to get a chance to change my profile pic. But haven't got the chance to post a new status.

I got some music browsing done for one song "TIM JAMES - I'LL BE YOUR SECRET" but to no avail thus I posted the video on my wall and asking for peple (begging!) to spare me the song bye sending it through my email or even give me a shot if they have it.

Anyway, I'm moving on. Enough of those kind deeds. Enough of those "understand-the-situation-of-a-friend" scenarios. I grown up with it and I don't wanna be left out as the sole victim of this kind deeds.I ain't born a saint. If they can't take what actions should I take, better be sorry for them. I just want to see the real me without hiding what I feel. Besides, enough is enough. Troubles have been done. Pity days is over and this is the start.

I won't treat people with special care unless they would see me as such too. Someone that they can take care that much.

Or maybe this is the time that I need to check the reality that I am 30 years old and I ain't getting any younger. I need to move on and I need to be more mature than what I am now.

Sorry you pal. I ain't taking this any longer but I guess if things will not end my way by Friday, consider waving your hands bye bye to a wonderful time with us. I don't wanna play around like a saint anymore. You aren't taking your steps to even show you care for the things that had happened.

Bye.

Me and My Horoscope for the day

From the above horoscope, it is reality for me for the past few days. My moody irritation is driving the people around me crazy about what is happening tome. 

For the past days, I have been so troubled with everything around. Family, friends, work, love life and myself. All is soaking my soul to death that I can't find time to properly think of things clearly and do some things appropriately. All I know is I kind to forget that I ain't alone in this world but still I seem to isolate myself and retracing all by myself the past wrong things that I have done. 

Good thing I still have the ability to camouflage my real feelings and have it hidden until all around me is an empty space and time starts to tick tock slowly that all I can hear are just those sighs i breath and those empty thoughts are penetrating the every inch of me.

Glad that I could still work properly and can still talk with people humorously. I never have time to talk to myself when I know I got some issues within me and I still tend not neglect it.

They say horoscopes are not real but I could probably say this time that the above captured horoscope says something about me and my state during these times. 

Bad.

"I Am Number Four" or the misspelled name case again.

Since it was my rest day, I have all my time to do anything what I want to do. My itinerary for this day is blank thus whatever comes in my mind, so be it.

After getting out from Unionbank ( I have my expiring ATM renewed) me and my Bhe went to Robinson's for some quality time. We have not planned of anything yet but whatever comes, so be it.

After checking whats being shown, we ended together to watch "I AM NUMBER FOUR". It stars ALEX PETTYFER. Our friend's review has have got us wonder what was the movie co'z we heard good feedbacks and, they did not let us down.

It was a good movie ( simply i couldn't say the best) and though I know this was based on a novel/book, there are deleted scenes that we cannot see but we can read in the book.

SFX were great. Superb fighting scenes and great stunts.

This movie starred my favorite GLEE-k DIANNA AGRON (playing Quinn in "GLEE"). Such a pretty face. I love her more when she does not play the villain of the story. She was great and yes she is so beautiful.

She played Sarah (opposite John Smith, played by Pettyfer). She was indulged in photography and when she met John (an alien who dress, walk, talk and live like us [human]), it turned out that she fall inlove with him and the rest was there love story. At the end, John will need to leave her first as they need to find some of their race scattered in allover the world.

Callan McAullife played "Sam", a bully from their school but has made friends with John and they turned out to be buddies, searching for Sam's father who was known to have been abducted by aliens of John's like.

HE and his father believed that aliens from other planets exist but has been treated like freaks and was bullied almost all throughout Sam's younger years but he now can prove that they were not those types of person when he met John. The problem is, He need to keep the things in silent.

This is Timothy Olyphant. He played the protector of "the number four, John. His rule was to play as the father of the alien John. Well, as the story goes, protectors always die in the movie and he died in the movie for protecting the sole savior of their planet.

He was cool.

And before the movie ended appears TERESA PALMER, who introduced herself as the "NUMBER SIX". SHe and John fought their enemies and all I can say was their scenes were great. SFX made it like something real.

TERESA PALMER is one hottie!




Well, I was ended with some hanging questions. I know there will still be a sequel for the movie and I hope it would be shown so soon.

Anyways, to save up some of my hanging questions, we went to Bestsellers (a National Bookstore  subsidiary) to ask about the book and yes, they confirmed its selling like hot cakes. I have asked them to reserve one for me and the problem on wrong spelling appeared again.

Sales Lady: How about saving one for you sir?
Me: Sure.

She grabbed a piece of paper and a pen and wrote down "Reserved" and my name: "Mr. John".

to Nimmy, comment on why I appear to have issues with the spelling of the sales lady again.


LOL.

A Birthday Memoir: Chona Mae Reyes

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Stuff-Less and Boring Offs (Killing Me!)

And I was lying in my bed the whole day again thinking of things that might give me satisfaction for this day. Think! Think! Think! None has come my way and my mind thus I decided to just stay on bed and wait when my phone would alert me for some messages. For about 4 hours, I received 1 message. Such a dull life and day. 

Afternoon came and still I run out of things to think and do. I went upstairs to see if my downloads were up (Glee Season 2 Episodes 10 to 14)! Crap! One is left after 12 hours of downloading it. The Serendipity soundtrack though was already downloaded thus it gave me time to browse whats inside. Good to listen songs but my ears will always be stuck to Annie Lennox version of "Waiting In Vain". Gees! Serendipity has come to my mind so I went downstairs and grab my DVD cases full of movie CDs. I picked up Serendipity and run it on the player. 

For about 2 hours, I was still stunned by how the Serendipity movie goes. After all, its my favorite movie of all time. 

So I was done watching the movie and I need to think of another thing to do. Sigh! None has come my mind again. I went upstairs and check if the downloads are good. Thanks God! I got 8 season 2 episodes for GLEE (7 to 14). So I deliberately watched the previous episodes which I have watched already. I guess Episode 11 is the latest episode but I started with episode 7. 

Now, its 8:00PM, I have nothing left to do. What else can make me busy? My phone just got an alert for a message. Grabbed it and read my friends messages. Its sad to say but before the day ends, my phone has just gave me 7 messages in total. Or should I stopped my "divert"option and have it working normally for my number. 

Read a blog about "ILUSTRADO". A book that I have just bought the last 2 weeks ago and I guess that would be my cue to keep me busy. Reading the book. But first, i need to get me something for my tummy and something for my 'umay"moments, COFFIN NAILS!

Such a boring life to live. I hope I could go out sometimes with people that I can have fun times with. Invites please. :-)

The Case of "icks" vs "x"

A lot of confusion with words would always appear in front of us. Spelling matter I mean. There are times when we, ourselves, is not able to spell out a word correctly when the fact remains that we have encounter that word for almost everyday of our lives. Or sometimes, to avoid confusion, we tend to make the word abbreviated. Of course this is a defense mechanisn against critics who would dare check on your spelling ability especially during this era when "texting" is some what a trend. Words were shortened, short-cut and sometimes changed to a different way just to go with the trend.

Take the word "would" for example. For texters, this could be spelled as "wud" or sometimes "wod". It depends on the texter actually. The reason for this might be because they want to spend less time and more words for a P1 worth text.

Anyways, this does not concern my rant. The thing is, I have been so clear when I say my name, "BRIX" whenever one is asking me. A lot of cases like people misspelling my name is really a pain in my head.

Starbucks is my favorite coffee place in the whole world and yes I like how they treat their customers especially when they ask for your name to be written on you coffee cup or that Venti cup for them not to mess up the orders.

Should I say it had happened to me 4 times now when they would spell my name as "BRICKS" instead of the for letter name "BRIX". Don't they know that most people with the name Brix uses "x" instead of "icks"? Gees! My rant is too shallow I know but sometimes this makes sense. Names are important to be spelled correctly to avoid complications in the future.

Imagine yourself acquiring government related papers and if your name is misspelled, it is such a case of a pain in your head thus we should let them know and we should check that everything is spelled right. We can't afford to start all over again co'z it would take extra time and extra effort just to have things fixed.

Rant, rant and rant. I guess this is me becoming old.

The Baker King (Korean Soap)

So goes my first day of the 2 days off. Another slacking day and has been all the time lying while watching TV. This is one of those usual things that I am on when I am out of the office. A little sip of something for refreshment and some stuff for my stomach. 

I have been a fan of Korean Soap-Operas thus this has been one of my past times. Korean soaps are far more filled with emotions and great twists of stories. That's one thing that I always love with Korean series. 

Have watched a lot of Korean soaps and for the last 4 days, I was focused on this "Baker King" soap opera. The last 3 days has not been a continuous one but i ended with 9 episodes and just for this day, the 10th until the last episode. 

I heard that this was aired in the Philippines already and was dubbed in our own language to fit the masses. GMA was the one who aired the program but I really don't like how they dub Korean soaps. I'd prefer ABS-CBN when it comes to perfect dubbing of this Asian TV shows.

"Baker King" is a 30-episode soap thus I started playing it from 4:30AM up til 11:00PM. An eye soaring activity for the day plus I have got no eye-closing yet and it turned my eyes eyes red now. 

This is a story of rivalry, kinship, power, greed, family, friendship, freedom and dreams. Its got a lot of twist and a lot of tear-jerking scenes that could really touch your soft sides. I never cried though but there were some scenes that could really touch your heart. You will surely get something to learn from this soap and lines that will put a mark in your brains. 

Main character Kim Tak Gu has never dream of becoming someone great but it was his call to be in the future as he was a son of a Bread Industry mogul. He never knew from the start that his life is more than what he have endured during his younger years. It was then when he was 12 years old when his mother Kim Mi Sun introduced him to wealthy family and to his father. Too young by then, he was shocked by the revelation but has still wanted to stay as a low profile child until he matures. He does not want to play a great person in the future co'z it was never par of his dream but for his mother. 

This was the cause on the never ending tale of ups and downs, tears and happiness, revenge and success for Tak Gu. For a period of 12 years after his mother was kidnapped, his life was programmed by his own self to look for his long lost mother. When he found the person who took his mother, by then he was introduced to the world of bread-making and another twists and turns were revealed for the unending search of freedom and dreams. 

He was then starting to love the new passion in bread making. He has the edge to the other bakers as he possesses a special sense of smell in which was prophetically said to be an unbeatable bread-maker. On his journey to this world, he found a rival in the name Sae Tae Jo which in the latter part of the story was proclaimed as his younger half-brother Gu Man Ju who has also been dreaming of becoming the next mogul in Bread Making in exchange of their father. 

But fate has always been good for Tak Gu thus giving more reason for Man Ju to envy the sibling. Man Ju has been in search of recognition from his father thus he entered the bread making world. Not only was his father's recognition was at stake. When he met the child-turned to-lady Shin Yu Kyung (Tak Gu's childhood friend and later has become his girlfriend) he wanted to take away Yu Kyung from Tak Gu by means of winning in the bread making competition. 

Tak Gu's fate has always been inclined with troubles and revenge from the people around him. Despite of this, his pure heart and smiling face has always win and would allow his villains to further put him down but they are unable to fully take Tak Gu. 

It ended well for Tak Gu and his mother as they both were back on each other's arms and Tak Gu have touch many people that he have encountered in the entire play. 

Anyways, all I can say is that I love the story and I love Korean soaps.

A Valentine Memory

The last time I checked, Valentines day has already ended. An annual celebration of love all over the world but not for all. I just spent all the time at work and work and more work. Such a boring kind of life. Such a loser as they say. 

But no, I ain't a loser co'z I was once able to celebrate this feast of the hearts along time ago. My very first and very ever formal Valentine date. This was way back 1999. I don't know why it just came out of my mind and never did I realize that it haunt me. 

Last night, I browsed my Friendster account co'z I have been searching for someone that has played a great role why I started to feel like Valentines Day is a special day to cherish memories and spend time with your special someone. 

This was the very first girl I took for a Valentines Date. A formal invitation and a memorable one for me. 

Her name is Cristy De Villa. Her family call her Ynte. I call her Miss Asa Rin and she wanted to be called Tricsy. 

Cristy was of my same age. We meet way back 1998 in Edsa Crossing where I worked in her Tita's novelty shop. She was a working student by then and she was working at the same place I work though specially on weekends and on days that she's got no schedule to go to school. 

It all started with love notes and love letters. I, myself, has been fond of writing down anything that i could think of in a poem. I have her as my coach by then. I let her read my compositions until such time, I came to realize that she became the apple of my eye. 

We started to please each other when one night we are talking serious things about our family and experiences. She was by then busy with her school work but I guess that time I was so eager to look for someone to talk with. And so, I grabbed her attention and we started talking as if we have known each other for a long time. That was the start of a good friendship. 

Cristy was the kind of girl who was born a fighter. Need not to tell you though why I'd say so. There are limitations that I need not to tell. 

She was the only person who told me to stop smoking and yes I did. But when conflicts arose like when her family, sister and even her Tita has figured something like me and her has this "mutual understanding thing", an emotional commotion was triggered to fail thus I feel like I was a loser. 

By then, when conflicts arose, we don't talk face to face but we let our pen and paper do the talking. I cried one night when she told me I can never be someone that she can be with for a special friend. I cried the whole night and I started the melancholy moments of my life with her. 

One night, when she found out that I wasn't the same me that she have known (co'z I become the worst of me), she talked to me face to face and she saw me cry. Those were hours of the turning point again of our relationshipa s special friends for each other. 

On the eve of Valentines day of 1999, I wrote a letter to her asking her if she could be my Valentine Date. She neglected it. But to my surprise, she came to me and let me say the invitation personally. AY! What a night!

The plan was actually to watch movie in Megamall, last full show. 

The night came, nobody from her family and nobody form our colleagues knew that we will be going out that Valentines night. We stroll the sidewalk to Megamall but we were too late co'z the last full show was already closed. We were both dismayed. We decided to take a walk and talk about things but instead of talking things, we were both silent while walking through a food chain which was the last resort. When we are about to cross the road, I grabbed her hands and took her to McDonalds since none was open other than that 24 hour food chain. 

We stayed silent and have not talk much. Both were tongue-tied. There was a time though when we surprisingly opened up a topic so serious that the atmosphere of the environment felt like Love is in the air. Whatever we have talked about, that would remain with the both of us. 

A good start for a special relationship. 

Time has been so cruel though and problem still arose. My being jealous was the issue and my being so silent was one thing that she hates. Co'z I never talk whenever i got a problem. I would just let her see that I bare a problem. 

Anyways, I am still looking for her till now just to properly fix things...

The Employees Pride 2

Ever wonder how it feels to be in a place where in you are limited with your actions? Your words? Co'z I feel like I wanna scream "Putang Ina" inside the office where I work. 

Its around 5pm and everybody has their thing to do. Agents taking calls, TMs checking their agents and we are checking everybody. If you still can remember the UK man that I told you who scolded me for speaking my native tongue, well here is another one worst scenario that has really irritated my day. I don't know why every time ha pass us by I feel like i wanna throw up on his face and have him clean my mess. Gee. This man has really give me the reason to hate being in this campaign. 

He passed us by, me and my colleague. He said "Good afternoon!" with that smile on his face. We need not answer co'z we are too busy with our tasks. But to our surprise he shouted again "Good afternoon!" and we jsut simply looked at him and raised are eye brows. What the fuck does he want? He wanted to be treated like his greetings should be responded? What the hell is the matter with him?

When he still got no reply from us, he looked at us and tried to wait for some words to come out from our mouth. But to no avail he did not receive any words from us. Who the hell cares with his good afternoon? 

To give you some clue, let's put a name into this creature. Let's call him "Mr. Laba Dami". Great name co'z it fits him. 

An hour and a half before my shift ends, my boss called our extension and he want me to go down on his office. I went there and was coached for the previous day's incident (native tongue speaking). But what really surprised me was the fact that Mr. Laba Dami has already dubbed me as "the-guy-with-black-nails" so my boss asked me if I was wearing black manicured nails. I said "yes! the other day when Laba Dami scolded me". It came to my realization that I was dubbed as such because he cannot even remember my name. 

Things like this are apparent in the office. Right now, everything is starting to get clear for me. I need to vacate my position and better look for another office before I could shout at his face. I ain't afraid with him. He is just a stranger in our country. Strangers does not have the right to rule over everybody else especially if he was not on his position to tell me what to do and not to do inside my homeland. 

I am considering the next 2 months as the trial and error part of my journey with my current company. Could get worse during this span of time, quitting is my last option and putting my middle finger up on his face will be my last hurrah!

An Employees Pride

So goes the day today. I am on rest after terrible days at work. Terrible co'z it brought out all the stress and exhaustion in me. I wonder if I can ever live this way while staying in the company. 

The past few weeks has been crucial for us who are left behind. I mean, some of our colleagues have already bade farewell to us and took a new journey in the other company. Sad but we need to focus on what's left for ur us. Me and the remaining people in our department. 

Just last night, I wondered how things have changed this way, DRASTICALLY! Was it due to some competitive price offered or the stress in workload given? Wast it about the management or the person's own decision?

Just last night, I have been scolded for talking my native tongue by someone who I can say has not got the right to tell me since he stands on my native country. I know that it was a policy for the company but screw the policy. This is the Philippines. Our native language is Tagalog and nobody can stop me from talking as such. 

This head-of-the-crappy-campaign that we are put into was such a nobody actually. He just walks around and listens to people talking and when he hears someone talking our native tongue, Progressive Disciplinary! Hello!

This company has been acting weird for the past couple of months. No wonder people come and people go. People stay but with angst to say things against the management. Such a loser company. Such a bunch of hideous management and such a place full of crappy rules.

I am about to turn 3 years in the company. This company has proved me wrong that I can stay here as long as they need me and my service, but not! I am starting to see an empty future continuing my stay with this hell-of-a-place. I have got a lot of options before but i stayed because the workmates I have are super and has been giving me the reason to stay. They are the only people who I can say I can trust and spend time with during lunch break and smoke sessions. They are my family in this company and not the whole management. 

Few days back, I got this call from one company asking if I can come to their office for an interview. I declined the invitation because leaving my current office will mean a new beginning, a new adjustment and a new environment to start my life. My friends and my favorites here will be the one I miss so much thus I declined the chance to take a new step in a new horizon. 

Well, ranting and venting out through this page is the only way that I can think of because no matter how we talk in the office or no matter how we let them see that we don't like the new things existing, new rules, we are still but poor employees and sooner everybody will be saying goodbye to this place called "The Crap of all BPOs". 

Offense meant.

Cases of the Ex(es): girlfriends, crushes and childhood sweet hearts

Lately I have been bombarded with a lot of questions regarding my ex(es) including girlfriend, crushes and child hood sweet hearts. But the case remains under my decision if I am to tell every what had happened with my past relationships. I am not trying to spill it out though to get those attentions from them but in some ways, I felt guilty and jealous every time I tried to stop by their pages in Facebook. 

Now let's say I don't really go for formal courtship. I mean, I am not used to do it the traditional way but through a letter. Some of this girls have received my letter and some were not but have heard it by hearsay. 

Here is, by the way, the list of them and i tend not to mention their real names (but I did. They won't read this anyway.) co'z there is someone who is tying to find them. I ain't hiding them though its just that I just don't want to spoil our relationship co'z better did my partner know how my feelings are now. 

Ex(es) List (girlfriends, crushes and childhood love) :

1. Jenalyn Alas - I haven't heard about her since we separated ways on high school. The lats time I know, my batch mates just told me that she's got a family now. She was the very first love I know in grade one and up until now, I have been wanting to see her and maybe spend time to talk about the good old days. The best thing about us though is that we are competitors inside the classroom but never did we compete outside and through hearts. She has been my ultimate love that lasted for more than 3 years, from first to 3rd grade (^_^).

2. Ann Charcos - I am about 5 years older than her and yes she captured my heart. Its funny how I started to let her know my feelings. I have her cousins bring the letter to her but asked them not to mention where did it came from. Every night, if we have time to play (I was around 13 and he was around 8 years old), her cousins always give us time to be in solo thus giving me the urge to feel heaven when Im with her. I got her picture still kept in my wallet until now. It has been long years now and I haven't heard from this lady. All I know is that she is working abroad, a lawyer as i heard in UK. 

3. Inday - I forgot her real name but this girl has chinese eyes and every boys crush in our place. Good thing I have the advantage co'z only I has the access to come and go in their house. Strict parents. I tried courting her but I then found out that she was already my buddy's girlfriend. Damn! How stupid of me trying to steal her from a friend. But, it never ended there. There was a time when things cleared out between her and my friend so i dig in and do the moves again. We go out, we have fun and go dancing. The rest is a sad history.


These are the girls who have been part of my early awakenings emotionally. 

4. Mildred M.

5. Maureen

6. April Rose

7. Kristine V

8. Althea Mae

9. Rachelle T.

10. Junna A

11. Janice Grace L.

13. Charisse

14. Queenie Falcon

The list is incomplete. I forgot the other girls. ^_^

Minus the Virtual World for a Week

“Mercy Mercy Me”




It has been a week when I isolated myself from the virtual world and all I can say is that its worth the chance to live like how I dealt with the day. One week and all I did was bore myself with DVD marathon and music tripping.



I am on my “nth” time watching those Disney Classic fairy-tales-turned-movies. Cinderella, Snow White, Rapunzel (of which was changed to “Tangled”), Anastacia, Sleeping beauty (Aurora, now I can’t forget Sleeping Beauty’s name), The Little Mermaid and some Pixar and Dreamworks cartoon themed movies.



Gees! I can almost memorize the episodes of Glee Season 1 and memorize the lines on “Meg Ryan and Tom Hanks starrer “You’ve Got Mail”. That’s how bored I was when I decided to put the virtual world out of my senses first.



Well, aside from watching movies on DVD and listening to music, I indulged myself on picking up some good read on my shelf. The Little Princess is the book that I am currently reading. Was about to start again Tuesdays with Morrie but I don’t want teary eyed after I read the book. Though I might have already read it but I can’t help myself to grab it still in the future. In the meantime, I am allowing my hands to grab the Princess Sara book.



Just this day, I started to coddle myself with the virtual world thus blogging is what I first think of. No use co’z my fingers typed www.facebook.com first. Gees! Silly fingers!



Anyways, another month will soon pass and we are on the Love month in the next 1 day. Pretty thinking of what to do though. I don’t have any idea yet on how I would spend that special day.

Bob Ong, Mitch Albom and Elizabeth Gilbert and the dancing Johnny Rocket's Crew

Just as planned, me and Wea Olympia, a former office mate turned close friend went for some winding activities after spending boring hours at home and has enough of watching DVD marathon, browsing the virtual world etc. Originally the meeting place was in Trinoma but we decided to met up in Robinson's Galleria. 

I always end up the early bird for met ups. I always wanted not to be late thus the spare time was spent strolling around the mall and doing some window shops but every time I am in front of a book shop, there is always this magnet that brings me inside. 

Scan from shelf to shelf, books to books, volume of books around and none is coming in my mind on what to pick. I then come up to the fiction section of National Bookstore and saw some lights heading my way. Gees! I remembered that I need to get some new books to add on my shelf.

Picking something has not been a problem for me unless I accidentally bumped in the bookstore and left with nothing to think about to pick. IM proud though co'z this time, I completed that books by Bob Ong by picking the latest one out, "Ang Mga  Kaibigan ni Mama Susan". But not only that, Julia Roberts smiled at me when I saw her on Elizabeth Gilbert's "Eat Pray Love" novel. I have already watched the movie and I need a deeper look on how the story goes in the book. I know it was a good watch and I'd say I hope the book can tell me more about the movie.

 

My fascination for books did not stop there though co'z after i grabbed that last copy of Gilbert's, Mitch Albom peeped in and tried to give me some hint that I need another book that he wrote after I purchased the "The Five People You Meet In Heaven". Hmm. I got to pick one and I know I need to have "Tuesdays With Morrie" since I have heard a lot about the book positively recognized. 

The time ended with me having the 3 above books added on my shelf and off to wait for Madam Chimpampu (thats how I call Wea).

I looked for a place to take some smoke break after the hour roaming inside the mall. I went to the smoking area outside the second floor and there I saw this newly opened food shops and restaurants on that floor. 

While puffing some fags, my eyes roamed around the area co'z I feel everything was new to me. And yes, everything and every store were newly established on that floor. Wonder it slipped my mind. Have I not been gone to Robinson's for a long time?

Then goes the 80's pop song "Build Me Up (Buttercup) on my background on a loud aura. I hummed along and sing along with the song only to find out that when I turned my neck to my back, the Johnny Rockets Hamburger Crew where dancing along with the music. At least 5 were on the floor dancing, 2 waitresses, 2 waiters and the manager situated in the middle. Dancing along with that 80s was actually fun to look at. Fun in the sense that they are trying to grab everybody's attention at that wee hour of the afternoon. Hmmm. They are actually cute to look at. 

It was a part of their promotion though as they have just opened that branch on that day.

What Do I Have Under My Christmas Tree?

It is always not a zero for me with gifts during Christmas. There are always presents under my tree. From a friend, a family, a boss or special someone and from me. 

So far, it was Miss Lhen Quizon, one of our bosses in the office, who gave me the first present for Christmas. It was wrapped in a recycled paper themed brown bag and that was a Body Shop Product. I liked it.

The second present was also a birthday present from Rizalyn Roca, one colleague from Bacolod, who sent a Calea, Blueberry Cheesecake. It was one of the best flavor I've tasted and I liked how it was layered. On top were the blueberry with some frosting in the sides. The second layered was the cheese flavored thing and the third layer was some nut. I don't know what type of nut was it but I am so sure that was one of the best cake I tasted. No wonder Riza sent one to me co'z she knows I would love it.

Hmmm.. Wonder what did i get for myself? A whole body massage at my favorite spa, Big Apple. Nothing beats a relaxed body after tremendous workloads and stress. I can still feel those special touch that turned my aching veins to being smooth and free. I have always wanted to get a whole body massage once a month just to sooth those crooked artillery inside my body.

That's as far that I can remember for now. I might need to watch out for New Year and see if people will remember an special occasion. LOL.

2010 Year End Look Back

Its not Christmas yet until 3 days from now. But if Santa would ask me "Have I been good this year?" for me to deserve some present, only my memory can answer. 

This is just a quick rundown on what had happened this year in my life. 

After getting the spot in Real Time Resource Dept in the company, my year started right. I celebrated my 29th birthday (that always fall on January 1...LOL.... (".)) with my friends. Barbecue and champagne on the eve of the 31st of Dec 2009 and birthday on 12:01 of the next year. Memorable co'z that was my first time celebrating my birthday with friends after 2 tremendous and sad years celebrating my birthday. 

April came when a sad news came to me. My father was taken to the hospital's ICU that it made my life worried. I have to get permission to pay a visit to my dad and 4 days later, I was beside him holding his hands and trying to calm him down and tell him I'm around. 

That was really the saddest part in my life. Four days later, my father died and with a promise, I told him that i will now stand as the bread-winner of the family. He died on April 10, 2010 in which was the date of my mother's natal day. My father put a reason to always remember him especially during my mom's birthday. Glum is what my companion for the next couple of days. Seeing him catching his last breath in front of us was the most tragic event in our family. At least, we are still keeping our hands crossed for a better future.

It was around the last week of April as well when a relationship of more than 4 years was about to end. This was the story of me and my partner. Depression was my company then so I needed someone who can comfort me but even my special someone was not around. I was left behind. I was isolated. I was neglected and nobody comforted me wholeheartedly. I did expect it to be shared with my Bhe but by then he was so fond with the new found group leaving me with melancholy and sadness. 

Such 2 tremendous things happened in just a month.

During this month though, I reunited with my long lost cousins and aunts. We haven't met in decades by then that their existence was like a dream fulfilled. They visited my father's wake. They are his sisters and nephews. They are his nieces. 

Despite of this sad stories, the next months were better though there were no special things that had happened but everything was worth remembering and worth sharing. 

I debut my first singing career in Tiendesitas' stage. On that night I was with my friends. Actually, that was not a professional singing but a request from my old friend whom I haven't seen for  a couple of months. That night made a history for me to like Neyo's Go On Girl. geez (shamefuL)

At work, there have been some lot of changes. People come and go that paying extra attention to them is a no no. Why? Co'z you will never know if they would stay with you for period of time or just passing by your road and off to their own journey again. Its hard to befriend people who come and go thus I stick with those who I really can share times with and who I know won't just leave early like the others did. Sad to think but that has been the trend at work this year. I'm lucky though to have been blessed with friends who find time to think of things before jumping in an unsure conclusion. 

My first RTR party together with the resource family happened this year as well. I may not have been to the previous resource gatherings but at least before the year ends, pictures say a lot that I enjoyed this family and that I pity myself for not attending the previous ones. The party was held in Pansol, Laguna with our Temporary Boss Bass Dassen and Susan Hall (EOP...when they are around). 

This year also marks my first time to step my feet in Mt. Makiling and took some pictures. Nature always fascinate me. Despite of the rainy weather, we did not allow it to stop us from taking pictures while viewing Laguna on that foggy afternoon. It was an amazing trip. 

I meet new friends and old friends. Classmates, frat mates, new faces, old faces. This year has been full of ups and downs that I can't fit in this page. Though, 2010 is soon to say bye bye and will never comeback, the memories is now plotted in this piece of virtual page. 

Goodbye 2010 and thanks for the memories.