Who knows what lies ahead?

First, why do we have to live? What is our purpose being in this universe? Are you a hero? The great Philosopher? The Scientist? The one who could make the world go round? The next US President? I guess, nobody knows what lies ahead. If you are a goal-minded person, pursuing every dream in every second, every minute and every hour, then you could possibly know what tomorrow would bring. 

Twenty nine years of living in this worl with uncontentment. Those bygones have been fresh but were never the ticket to pursue a career im worthy to work on. Decades of wandering thoughts, years of incomplete tasks, sleepless night, unworthy daytime. Still, nothing has ever popped  up in my mind but pure nothingness. 

Those wasted years will never be brought back but it was during those times when a little boy dreamt of becoming a teacher. A noble profession that deserves an outstanding ovation. 

Teacher: deserves an standing ovation.

 Teachers are one of those youth molders of which i thought i could easily manage. I can still remember when I was on my first grade, i use to stand in front of the class and read the ABC's loudly to my classmates and write it down on board nad have my classmates read it out loud. Well, i was advanced in thinking as per my first grade teacher told my Mom. So, at the end of the school year, i grabbed a ribbon for beeng the "Little Teacher of the Class". An achievement that i would never forget and paved way for me to pursue  dream of becoming an educator. 

I did took an Education course but never graduated. During those times, i thought that being a teacher is not easy so goes my mind in two thinking and halfway before graduation year, I stopped. I know I will never be a good teacher. Why? Co'z my patience during those times is too little to accomodate the seemingly hundreds of kids or young adults that i might be teaching when finishing the course. What a wasted 3 years of unfulfilled dream. Then i started again to think of whats best for me. What's the thing that caught my attention the most. MUSIC!

Oh my! I am a frustrated singer. Way back in the province, i love to hop from one to another videoke bars just for the crave of music and becoming singer. I joined singing and always ends up the 2nd place or nothing at all. I remembered when our church organized a singing contest, i was happy coz i bagged the champion. Well, there was only 3 contestants, me, my brother and my sister. And, i sing way far better than me so that explains it.

Frustrated singer

Way back at home, i have a little casette tape player and FM station radio that i would always have beside me while im lying down. Idolizing singers has been my hobby during those times. Singing along with the melodies of my favorites. Pity me. I was really a frustrated signer way back then. 

Dreams dreams dreams. 

As far as my memory is clear, the last serious singing act i did  in front of of a big crowd was when I represented our College for Mr and Miss Education.That was so me! Singing the song "The Will of The Wind" by James Photoglo. My favorite song that time. After i sang, i felt like it was one of the times when i felt being laughed to. No worries though. There are only small number of people who are given the chnace to sing in front of a crowd. I was one of them. 

I discarded the though of becoming a singer and to my surprise, unexpected opportunity came along my way. Magik FM has opened its door for me to be a Disc Jockey (but never was my dream). Its its real sense, i have lived with it. Music has been a part of my growing up years and now what im goind to do is just play those music and talk about it and laughed about it and criticized it. Thats how free we are as DJs. 

I became a DJ unexpectedly. My new found friend who i never though was a DJ invited me once to drop by their station (Magik FM) after i attended church on that one thursday of September 2002. I watched her doing the DJ thing and I enjoyed every moment of it. She asked me to pick up sme songs that she would play so i walked through teh CD cupboards. Checked each CD for a song. ALAS! that was a blast! for 3 hours, almost all songs that she have played were picked by me. She was impressed or I don't know. Then goes the question of the day." Do you wanna be a DJ"?

Radio DJ is one fantastic job.

and, to no further ado, my DJ life started. After and embarrasing day of singing infront of a crowd, here goes me talking and laughing in public. WOW! Being a radio jock is fantastic experience. I was like a celebrity. I can see myself in a company of fans inviting me to party with them. Cool! 

Well, after all, I never ended as a DJ though. I decided to grab some bigger opportunities thus allowing my feet to travel and wander around MAnila. At first, it never occured in my mind on whats my purpose in here. Why i am here? Well, one simple answer: "I never came here to fulfill a dream instead to fulfill what my heart wants and cant live without". 

At this very minute, i worked in a BPO industry. I hate it at first coz i never knew how does it work. I got a lot of questions twisting in my absent-minded brain. Well i survive call center? Well i be a better person in being a part of this working environment? After all, i never dreamt of becoming a telephone conversionalist or someone who wants to pacify a shouting person at the other end of the phone. I have never wanted to work at night and sleep during daytime. It wasn't in the itineraries that i have jot down for my life.

"Thank you for calling blah blah blah... How may i help you?" says me.

"oh, i hope you can help me." says the person in the other line along with a sarcastic laugh. (i hate being treated that way. 

"Well,madam, you have called in the right person to assist you". says me again. 

"Can I speak with a supervisor? or a manager". 

Then there goes those words that i would not really wanna hear coz it just put me in a situation where i was never a big help. Anyways, i never dreamt of this job. 

"Absolutely, Madam, Please stay on the line".. then have the customer stay on hold until she will drop down the phone and goes me agin with the opening spiel. 

Call center. Yes. I am currently working in a call center but not an agent anymore. On the second level. Enough of those SUP calls, AHT, ACW, QA and blah blah blah. I am now in a degree where i talked about numbers, reports, staffing, shrinkage (though a lot of terms have not crossed my mind before). 

I never dreamt of becoming a call center agent

Call center though has played a great role for me to discover the possibilities of impossible things of which i thought i won't hav ethe chance to try for the rest of my life. Call center is my new life. But, i never dreamt of this tough. 

Tomorrow, or maybe yesterday, i maybe have though of quitting this job coz i never dreamt of this. BUt as soon as im still happy i will live the way i live now. Being in a call center. 

Though, to top them all, i still dont know what i really wanted to become. Im about to leave the 20s age. Months from now. WHo knows what lies ahead?